Actors Inlove {COMPLETED}

Puffy eyes Kitty

Simon is in a state of paranoia; his unwarranted jealousy and fear, the pain he suffered for the last two days, he wasn't sure if what he is seeing now is his imagination brought by his eagerness to see this person.

He looks into the other person's eyes full of question and longingness. His heart beating so fast and he doesn't know what to do. Should he hug him? should he demand an explanation now? He is so confused about what to do facing the person he loves so much but ignores him when he needed him.

"Hi!"

Hanz breaks the awkward silence of the staring game.

"Can I come in?" He looks at Simon with pleading eyes, clenched his fist waiting for the response of the other.

Simon stared at him for a few more seconds then turn his back to sit on the wide sofa, "You have five minutes."

Saying those words, Simon is twice as hurt as Hanz ignoring him. He can't imagine that a time will come that he will be the one to play the hard-to-get role. Deep inside, he just wanted to hear even just a little assurance from Hanz that he loves him and not Zi. That Hanz chose him and not Zi.

Hanz followed him inside, walking slowly like a cat who wanted to get that spare fish on the table.

"Are you okay?" Hanz said full of honesty.

Simon is not planning to speak and just want to listen to Hanz's explanation, those messages he sent were enough proof that he's not okay but he's asking him if he's okay? Did he not read those messages? 

Furious plus all the pent-up emotion, Simon erupted like a volcano without a warning.

"Okay? You're asking me if I'm okay?! Hanz, I've been calling you for two days! I sent hundreds of messages but you ignored me! How am I okay? I can't travel back to see you and all the news on the internet with you and your ex, tell me how am I okay?!!"

Simon can't stop himself now, he needs to tell this man everything that is in his heart. That is the only way that he could breathe freely again.

"I'm sorry if I forced myself to you if I pester you and love you. I know you love Zi, I was just someone who meddles in your affairs. Don't worry Hanz, I will set you free. I don't want to be the reason for your sadness. Just... just give me time to forget you." 

Simon has been choking in his words, tears flowed fast in his rosy cheeks.

Hanz is still standing while listening to Simon saying those brutal words to him. He froze on the spot hearing Simon say he will let him go.

"Did.. did I say.. that I will break up with you?" Hanz stuttered in his words.

This is not what he imagined will happen. He thought that Simon will wag his tails upon seeing him, will beg him to stay, or will be happy to see him.

"You can blame me, get angry with me but don't tell me that you will let me go. My pride is too much but what I am most fearful of now is you don't want my heart anymore."

Hanz tried to suppress his tears. No, this is not the time to cry. He will choke and won't be able to say things clearly. Fuck this feeling. He loved Simon now, he loves him too much now, why would this bastard decide to stop loving him?

"Can you continue to cry for me.. smile for me, be nice to me? Allow me to think for you, get crazy for you, and grow old with you, Bao, please. I will forget my pride for you, I will take care of you, I will remember your favorite foods, everything you said, just please... don't... don't rush to throw away all our memories."

This time Hanz cried with all his heart. He falls down on his knee, holding Simon's hand, pleading him to think twice.

"You never called me Hanz before, it's always Baobei, bao, gege.. it hurts hearing you call my name while breaking up with me. Baobei, can you give me a chance to explain? What was said online isn't true. Zi and I talk to clear things out. Bao, please look at me..."

Hanz didn't know what to say anymore, he doesn't know how to coax a man, what should he do if Simon will not give him a chance? What should he do?

"Bao..." Simon uttered a word when Hanz didn't speak anymore.

"Sit here. I can't bear to see you like this." He taps the space beside him gesturing Hanz to sit close to him.

"Stop crying. I'm sorry. I'm sorry please don't cry." 

He wipes those tears with his hands. He promised Hanz not to hurt him but his man is now crying painfully, he's crying because of him. 

He pulls Hanz and puts their foreheads together, closing his puffy eyes he said to Hanz, "I won't make you cry again. I will never say the word "break up" again. Bao, I promise to listen to you first and trust only you."

Hanz is still sobbing, thank the heavens this man love him so much, thank the heavens for hearing his only prayer. "I will never ignore your calls again, I promise not to.. to ke- keep secrets from you. Remember that this prideful man has only you in his heart."

Simon holds Hanz's face with his long slender fingers, pulled him close, and kissed him on the forehead tenderly.

Hanz's body tensed up. He grabs Simon's collar for a kiss.

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A/N

This chapter made my eyes a little blurry (no! I didn't cry. my heart is made of steel *sniffing emoji)

GJ is so busy with all his Livestream today. I keep on watching him and then writing this chapter. One minute I'm sad then another minute I'm giggling because of his playfulness.

To keep it short, it took me 9hrs. to write this one chapter. *crying emoji

Please listen to HOW HAVE YOU BEEN by Eric Chou when you read this chapter. Some of the lines by Hanz is from that song *wink *wink

Now, let me cry some more... I mean let me drink some water.