Normal? - SeolBo

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Pintu loteng dibuka dari dalam. Jiyeon dan Sojung terus menoleh kearah pintu.

Juyeon keluar dengan wajah yang masih tidak berpuas hati. Namun, Sojung yang faham segera meninggalkan mereka berdua. Mereka perlukan masa untuk meluahkan.

Juyeon perlahan - lahan mendekati Jiyeon sehingga jarak mereka kurang daripada 30 cm.

Juyeon memandang Jiyeon di bawah yang lebih rendah sedikit daripadanya sebelum bersuara.

"Unnie, i don't know why did you keep it secret from me but... You have been trough a lot.... No, i mean i have made you been trough a lot after you have been trough a lot..... I hope you understand me".

"I mean... It's all my fault. I should notice your change earlier. I should never remind you about that day. I just.... I just miss your touch. Now, you just let me touch you and never reply then sighing nonstop. I could feel that it's all my fault. Sojung unnie keep asking me to stop. I can feel like she's blaming me. I know... I know that i keeps touching everyone but... You know that you're... You're different. I just... I just really want to say that i'm sorry and... I will.... I will stop touching you.... And i will stop saying that i miss your touch. I will keep remind myself to stop reminding you about that day. I will never-".

Jiyeon terus memeluknya.

"I will never...-".

"Juyeon ah...".

"I will never...".

"Juyeon ah, it's not your fault".

Akhirnya, Juyeon terdiam dan mengalirkan air mata yang deras. Manakala, Jiyeon mengeratkan lagi pelukannya lalu membalas.

"I just can't avoiding myself from your touch. But, i'm sincerely... I still like it. I can't resist that feeling. It's just me after all. I can't stop myself from addicted to that hate comment about myself. If i never read that... It would be better for us. The reason why i can't tell you sooner is... I though that i will overcome it quickly then it will not be that important but... I failed. Talk about missing.... I would miss to touch you more. But, i... I can't stop addicted to my new goal that is to become normal. I though when i read the letters from that random men, i will feel love from a different gender. But, i can't help it. I can't avoid that feeling towards girl. I just wanna get to normal back. Normal like i used to be. Like the original mother nature setted for us-".

"Unnie. Let's end it here. I can't keep hugging you. Let's get downstairs", Juyeon menolak tubuh Jiyeon perlahan lalu segera mengelap air mata.

Kakinya terus melangkah laju masuk semula kedalam bangunan.

Manakala, Jiyeon tidak dapat bergerak malah hanya dapat melihat Juyeon menghilang dari pandangan. Dia berasa sangat bersalah sehingga lututnya tidak dapat menahan berat badannya.