Book 3 ~ Something I Need (Cam Dallas Fanfic)

Chapter 11

(Double Update!....Sorta?)

*3rd POV*

It's been a while since the event. 

The holidays weren't the same as last year or the year prior. 

The group just split during the holidays this year. They weren't all together. Cam did let Kay see the twins during the morning or evening of the holidays because they both weren't gonna let them miss out on the other parent.

Sadly, it took a tragedy to bring the group back together. 

*Kay's POV*

"You know I love you right?" Con said out of nowhere.

"Yeah....why?"

"Just remember that. You don't hear it enough from anyone so I just wanted to let you know."

Without thinking deeper into it, I just hugged him and we continued to spend the day together.

It was then I wish I saw the signs. 

But of course, I didn't.

It was a Sunday when I got the news.

I had been out shopping for some new baby things with Lexi. Con had sent me a text with a link to a song, it being This Is Gospel, and I just thought it was because it's his favorite song. It was the call from Ky that made everything click.

My phone started to ring out of nowhere and the moment I answered. I heard, "Kay...you need to get here now."

"Why?" I asked concerned cause I could hear that Ky has been crying.

"Please just come home," he begged.

"Alright, alright. I'll be right there. Just don't do anything stupid."

"Can't make any promises," I heard him choke out after a sob before hanging up. Sighing, Lex and I quickly bought the things before she dropped me off at the house. 

Once I got inside, I placed the bags at the entrance before going into the living and saw a crying Kyle. Heading over to him, I just hugged him tight. 

"He's gone..." 

That's when my heart broke for the second time. And even though I knew what he meant, I still asked, "what do you mean? Like as ran away or?"

"As in he committed suicide!" He shouted before crying again. "He left me."

"How do you know for sure?"

"The police called me. Then he also left this," he held up an envelope. "Here's the one he wrote for you. I didn't open it because I know he'd want only you to see it."

Giving a small smile I said, "thanks."

He just nodded before wiping his face. "I'm gonna go out for a walk."

"Please don't do anything stupid," I said with a bit of begging in it.

"I won't. But you better not do anything stupid. Promise me."

"I promise."

He nodded before walking out. Sighing, I went upstairs into my room and laid back on my bed. Slowly opening the envelope, I felt my heart racing because I was scared. My heart raced faster as I started to unfold the paper.

Dear Ka- no that's too formal. 

Hey Kay,

First I wanted to apologize. For not being able to give you this. Or being able to say goodbye. I wish I could be there to say goodbye but just like I wrote to Ky, you'd try to stop me. And this is something that couldn't be stopped. I needed to do this to get away from my pain. 

I don't want you or Ky to blame yourselves because it's not your fault. You two made the last few months of my life the best they could ever be. From the concerts to the movie nights to everything. I couldn't ask for a better bestfriend or boyfriend. And even though I'm gone. I want you to do one last thing for me. 

Sing my favorite song at the funeral. Sing it with all the pain you have. I know right now you may be confused on why but when you sing it there everything will click Kay. I promise you. 

Please take care of Ky, also. I know this is gonna be really hard on him since we've known each other our whole lives. He's gonna be broken for a while but when it's the right now I want you to try to get him back out to the dating world. Tell him I want him to continue sharing his love. I need him too because I won't be able to stand watching over him and seeing him break each day, more and more. 

My mind is drawing a blank now because I don't wanna leave you two. Tears are falling everywhere because I know how this will break the two of you. Just know I love you both a lot. You're my bestfriend Kay. You were there for Ky and I when we needed you. And we will always be there, even if one half of us is gone. You and Ky can get through this together but whatever you do. Do not get rid of that house because it means the world to Ky. Do whatever you have to, to make sure he keeps the house.

It has a lot more meaning then it just being where him and I lived alone together for many years. But I have to go now before I chicken out.

I love you Kay.

Take care of Ky and your soon-to-be baby. You'll make an amazing mom to another beautiful baby. 

Goodbye,

Con

P.S
If you look under your pillow I left a few of my favorite things for you. Ky got my most favorite but you got some too. I love you.

As I read the last three words, my heart broke and I noticed all the tear stains on the letter. 

But it broke more when I looked at the top of the letter and recognzed the date. 

It's been a year since Will died.....

The world is definitelly not on my side. 

Placing the letter on my dresser, I picked up the stuffed penguin and laid my head on my pillow. Then I remembered there was something under it that Con left. Feeling underneath, I grabbed the few items. They were his favorite black beanie, his signed Pretty Odd album, and a photo album. 

Smiling, I put the photo album and the album on my dresser underneath the letter. Laying back again, I placed the beanie on the penguin that way I had both of my angels with me at all times. I grabbed the remote to my radio and hit play. Gerard's voice started to fill my room as I fell asleep with a few tears slowly falling.