Sorry, I Love You

Chapter 1

Hey guys, I'm back with another Minsung ft. Seungmin fanfic. I originally wanted to make this a 2Min fanfic, but ended up turning it into a confusing relationship. Hope you enjoy.

I took inspiration from videos, so credits to 'skztv', 'skzshii' and others.

Song: Youth - BOL4

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Falling in love by itself is already hard enough, but loving someone who doesn't even know your existence hurts even more. This is the life of Kim Seungmin, a university student majoring in vocals, who is in love with his senior, Lee Minho.

Minho majors in dance and not only is he known for his amazing looks, but also for his consistent high grades and kind nature, thus becoming the school's top star and is popular among all. Seungmin wouldn't mind his booming popularity nor being crowded by waves of students every other second, if he was single. Unfortunately, luck was never on his side and Minho is dating Han Jisung, who's in the same year as him, majoring in music composition.

This whole one-sided love started all the way back in high school, when Minho transferred over to his class. It was break time and Seungmin was staring off out the window, as if something unexpected is bound to happen. He didn't have anyone to chat with and boredom's killing him from the inside. Suddenly, the teacher's stern voice snapped him back to reality: "Everyone, quiet down. There will be a new student joining us today, make sure to be nice to him."

With that said, the door opened right on beat and in stepped a boy with purple hair with hint of gray in it. "Hello, I'm Lee Minho. Nice to meet you, please take care of me."

A short and concise introduction was given and brief silence answered it, before choruses of screams erupted within the room. Seungmin didn't wonder much about him and turned his attention back to the outside world, expecting the newcomer to ignore him as well. But when Minho was assign to be his seatmate, he can't help but steal several glances from the boy.

Unlike his crush, Seungmin's a loner with Felix, a sunshine in dance major, as his only friend and average grades. Not because he didn't want to make friends, but he's socially awkward, causing many to leave in due time. In Minho's eyes, he's just an ordinary classmate with no connection to him, as they rarely communicate, only during when necessary.

Within the next-coming few weeks, the familiar feeling of butterflies in his stomach and tingling in his chest overcome him whenever he's near the other male. It's a weird feeling that annoys him frequently. 'Why am I feeling this way... It's not like I like him, right? We don't even talk to each other. So why am I like this...' Seungmin thought, burying his head in his legs and pulling his knees to his chest. It's currently vacation, so he's in his room, trying his best to sort out the strange feeling that's been bothering him.

To make things worse, they were given a project, that's due in 2 weeks. Not only that, it's must be done in the pairs assigned by the teacher. Just the thought of having to work with someone was enough to drain the blood from his face and plenty beads of sweat decorated his forehead. When Seungmin heard his name, he lifted his head so quickly it might have snapped a tendon or two. Minho and Seungmin were assigned together to research on the topic of human anatomy.

Human anatomy are various structures of a human body and is the key to understanding the practice of medicine and other areas of health. There's two main approaches: Gross anatomy about biological structures that the eye can see, with 11 organ systems in the body. Along with macroscopic anatomy, a study of cells and tissue of living beings.

Seungmin folded his arms on the table and buried his face in it, unaware that Minho is coming his way. He was frustrated and worried, 'Out of all people, why must it be him? Why is this happening now, there's a chance I might mess up.' His thoughts were cut short, when a hand patted his shoulder. The voice he'll be willing to listen all day spoke: "Should we meet up after school and head to my house for the project?" Seungmin raised his head and nodded silently, not trusting himself to speak without breaking.

During the time he spent with Minho, he starts to notice that whenever he's with the other male, his heart rate speeds up and his face becomes warmer. That's when he begin to realise he may be having feelings for someone he shouldn't have.

Being invisible to the person you love is a painful and terrible feeling.

Back to the present, Seungmin is currently heading to the academy where he spots Minho and his boyfriend flirting shamlessly, causing him to feel a pang in his heart. Tears starts stinging his eyes, as they threatened to roll down his cheeks. Rubbing them away furiously, he ignored the love-birds and continued his way to his first lecture.

Upon reaching, Felix waved him over and begin chatting about his boyfriend, Changbin. Seo Changbin is a year above them and in the same major as Jisung. It was more of a love at first sight, but that's for another fanfic.

Seungmin was already used to his rants, having to hear it every day. He didn't really pay attention, till Felix asked: "Are you going to confess to him soon? It's better than bottling all your emotions to yourself and hurting."

Yes, only Felix is aware of his feelings for Minho. He trusts him enough to tell him everything. Seungmin replied, a small sad smile displayed: "I don't know... it's not like I have a choice. He already has someone, neither do I want to ruin the only connection we have."

Felix's expression softened and gave the taller male a hug, along with a suggestion, "Why not try it, just so you can get the terrifying feeling of rejection off your chest?"

"Alright.. I'll tell him my feelings today after school. I hope everything goes well.." Seungmin sighed, receiving a light pat from his friend, as the teacher walked in.

Soon, it was lunch time. Felix left with his boyfriend on a lovey-dovey date, leaving him alone. Currently, he's in a empty classroom writing note for Minho to meet him behind after school, before slotting it under the said male's desk. It wasn't a lie nevertheless to say that he was very much afraid about how everything will turn out.

Excited and nervous, the end of the day came and Seungmin was waiting behind the school, fiddling with his fingers mindlessly. "Seungmin!!" Someone called out, surprising him.

"Ohh, hey Minho. Glad you manage to come." Seungmin greeted, trying not to stutter. Slight pink blush tainted his cheeks.

"What did you want to tell me?" Minho asked, a kind smile evident on his face. The smile that Seungmin fell so in love with since long ago.

"Err... I.. I hope this won't destroy our friendship, but... I LOVE YOU, MINHO. Always..." Seungmin confessed, eyes and hands clenched shut, as tears gathered around, whispering the last part.

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Surprise, a cliffhanger~ Hope you enjoyed the first chapter. Feel free to leave comments.

Till next chapter, take care.