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Just a few days ago, I just got my result on last semester's examination. What I can see is a lot of my friend did not really satisfied with what they just got. Including me, myself.

I am not too.

But yes, it is better than what I thought. Last semester's examination was so hard, not just only the question but also the time given for us. It is really not enough for us to settle down all the question in just one hour. And I still remember the subject was "Funun Al-Lughah Al-Arabiyyah". Can you imagine we need to make an essay that worth 20 marks in arabic and also writing a hadith in khat raqaah for just one hour. And I am not a type of person who can write khat beautifully. AaaGrh, I was so sad on that time because I could not finish the paper and sent 'them' satisfiedly. 

But today, on the day when we already got our own results, Masha Allah. Alhamdulillah! I am really blessed with what I just got. The result make me to think that when we already give our best, we will accepting it heartly. 

"Although it was not the best, but it is enough for us to feel happy"- that's when we already put our trust on Allah ( read: tawakkul) completely.

I am saying that I am not satiesfied not because i dont like the result or what, but I am realising what I am doing on study week before the exam started. I am not really well prepared for that time. 

if only I can turned back the time, I will-

I will make a lot of effort in studying all of the subjects. The worse feeling ever is when we know that we are not giving out of the best. 

The same goes to my friend, they were sad and anxious and the same time.  So I thought I just want to share with them some words so that they can feel better. But after all, they said to me that I am not in the place to say that for them.

" Eleh, hang takpalah budak pandai. Result hang mesti elok kan."

"Ya la tu, hang pandai, takpa la......"

" Hmmm hang ni awat pandai sangat weh"

"hmm ya laa * insert muka sedih dan takleh terima pandangan aku"

First of all, I hope what you said will become true. 

Sebab orang kata, kata-kata itu umpama doa yang melantun-lantun. Toin Toin

(Semoga saya, kita, awak dan kamu akan menjadi budak pandai dan dipermudahkan segala urusan dalam jalan menuntut ilmu ni)

because I know that I am not literally 'budak pandai'. I am a type of person who needs to study a lot too in order to get what I want. But still, I know these all are helps from Allah. Because the only one who know myself well is just me. Nobody. Not you too. And you are the one who knows yourself well than the others too.

"Don not let people tell you what you are or the type you need to be to 'memenuhi' their expectation. "

Do you want to know, the thing that I want to avoid and I hope it is not adalah Istidraj. 

Cuba bayangkan segala yang kita dapat pada hari ini adalah istidraj. Sebab kita banyak melakukan dosa, jadi Allah berikan kita segala kemudahan dan kelebihan untuk kita lebih sesat lagi. Nauzubillahi min dzalik.