My co-star got me pregnant

8) Co star's reasons

Mew's eyes were still red and swollen. He has stopped crying and calmed down.
He was still little low though.

He was still holding Gulf's hand while both sat on a bench next to eachother.

" Should I join you to your condo ?" Gulf questioned.

Before Mew could decline Gulf's phone rang.

"Mom? " Gulf answered still looking at Mew.

"No mom, can I come home later?"Gulf asked.

Gulf's mom wanted him back home, Mew knew. She rarely let him stayover with Mew and mostly they'll stayover at Mew's home.
She didn't hate him she's just cares for Gulf. He's  still young and dependent. Mew understands her.

" You can go Nong , I'll go home today." Mew answered.

You dumb creature. Gulf thought while looking at Mew.

" Oh Ok Mom you can pick me up". Gulf answered in a low tone and ended the call.

"Mew, your car has arrived" staff informed .

"Ask them to wait for a while" Mew answered.

He will leave after Gulf leaves.

Gulf didn't know if Mew was staying back to accompany him till his mom picked him or because he wanted to stay for a while to cool himself down.

" You can leave if you want to phi" Gulf told half-heartedly.

Mew shook his head and pull Gulf closer and sat hugging him.

Clingy . Gulf thought smiling like a fool.

Both leaft once Gulf's car came.

I could have stayed with him of he didn't reject me like that. Gulf thought .

" Why are you making that face? Don't tell me you planned to stay in your  friends condo so you could bunk college".

"Mom". Gulf replied irritated.

Well he used condo just for a months , he couldn't manage to get on college in time.

He was a pampered kid who didn't even stay in hostel  , do you expect him to cook or even survive eatting canteen food for long .... Nope.

Not to forget he didn't use public transports, and doing his chores all by himself made him pack his bags and run back home .

" I didn't plan anything" he finished looking away at the window.

He knows Mew likes him alot. Mew is definitely drawn to him. But he also knows Mew won't go anyfurther.

If only Mew loved me like I love him . He thought looking at the sky.

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After showering Mew sat on a chair in his bedroom.

His mind was in choas.

He was thinking about Gulf again. Like he said before his love will have no future.

Back when he shot his previous bl he thought he loved his then co star Wills.
And thought he loved him back .

Well Wills cared for him like no other. He was matured , caring  and put up with Mew.

He was silent when Mew asked him if they could be boyfriends.

He thought it was just suprised or maybe he approved. Mew  would have backed off and apologized for misunderstanding if he told he wasn't ok with it.

No . He went to the agency and complained how Mew has developed feelings .
That Mew was trying to two time him, but yeah Mew brokeup with his girlfriend before confession.

So yeah Mew's reputation fell, all agency's withdrew their contract.

He was signed up for few Hetro dramas and they were gone too . After all no one wanted to work with a gay  .

Mew wasn't one. He liked Wills that's all he didn't have sexual attraction towards him.

His mind always told it was an infactutaion. He knew it but was too young to go by it.

He isn't blaming Wills.

He is blaming himself . The stunt he pulled without even questioning his sexuality and feelings cost him and his family dearly.

He messed up his career and family. All for nothing. The feeling he had towards Wills vanished like that . Like what his mind predicted.

If he didn't do it then he would have had the courage to confess to Gulf now.

But again his another consern was that Gulf's feeling towards him could be same as Mew's feelings towards Wills.

If that's the cases and they proceed further both will ruin everything for nothing.

And Gulf's career will be over before even it prospered.

It's ok Mew. Everyone don't get to live with the one they love. Wounds will heal . Yeah scars will remain , this time it will be a beautiful one. My Gulf.

He was more than willing to bear that scar .

He was willing to let go of his love for the sake of Gulf.

And maybe himself too but that was of  lesser value.

If only life could you kind enough and let's us stay for a little longer. Mew thought before falling asleep.

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