My co-star got me pregnant

12) Confession

So the night came , both men slept hugging eachother after a shower in the same bed.
No Gulf didn't invite Mew to bed he came there himself but Gulf could see sadness in his eyes .

The next night the retired to thier room after the shoot. Gulf's emotions and body both were behaving odd .His body felt sensitive, his emotions were heightened and libido increased. Not to forget his anxiety about confession.

Gulf thought he wouldn't be able to do it but after shooting the ad, acting like a happy couple just hours ago stirred up his emotions. He wanted that life , he can't even imagine Mew being like that with someone else .

He may be hurt if he gets rejected but he'll regret it lifelong if he didn't try everything he could in his power.

" pMew" Gulf who was already on bed with his pajamas on legs stretched and torso leaning on headboard called the guy who just came out from the shower in a sweatpant and tee.

Mew looked at him still drying his hair with a towel .

" I wanna speak to you". Gulf said looking down at his finger that were placed on his lap.

" Sure Tua- eng" Mew sat down on other side of the bed with a conserned look.

Gulf was still silent forcing himself to speak internally.

" Sad that this might be our last project ah? Miss me already? Ah  I must  desireble  " Mew said in a playful tone hoping to cheerup Gulf

" You are" Gulf said .

Mew was confused with his Nong agreeing to him , it wasn't his nature.

But he understood something is off when Gulf lifted his face and looked at him with tears in eyes.

"Yes. I'm sad. I miss you already and yes you are desireble." Gulf said with a broken voice barely holding his tears.

Mew immediately held his hands and stroked it to calm him.

" Sh.. It's okay. Calm down we'll meet even after this . " Before Mew could talk further he was cutoff.

" No it's not okay". Gulf replied crying a little.

" Calm down" Mew was carresed his face . He was emotional too. He knew this moment will never come again.

"Mew" Gulf's voice reflected his emotions raw.

Both were staring at eachother's teary eyes and thier faces were considerable close.

Gulf leaned in and lightly placed his lips over Mew's . They stayed like that for few moments until Gulf parted and said
" I love you PMew. I love you so much it's hard to conceal anymore."

Both were their faces had tears rolling down.  Mew was the first to regain his posture and wipe the tears off .

" I understand. But you're young Gulf . You're impulsive and assume it to be love. It'll be alright .. you'll forget me. You'll get the ideal girl" Mew said softly wiping Gulf's tears.

Yeah was difficult for him to say those but it was his duty to correct Gulf. 

" No. I love you believe me" Gulf held Mew's palm desperately.

" Sh.. ok you love me for now. Ok. But this has no future Gulf" Mew tried convincing him.
" You said there's surrogacy , you said babies can grow up together" Gulf didn't know what's going on with himself anymore

" It not about that Gulf. You'll get over this feeling at some point and regret everything. " Mew said petting his hair.

" It  won't hurt to try. Give our relationship a chance" Gulf pushed.

" Didn't you say you're not gonna act in bl anymore? You think--" Mew was saying something but Gulf interrupted " unless it's with you".

" Yeah. So you think people will support you  . No bl fans don't make up entire audience there are lot of Homophobes. You'll lose everything for nothing"

Mew took a deep breath and continued
" And I can't bear to lose you after being with in a relationship. Doing it now itself is hard than you can even imagine" Mew finished looking at Gulf .

" Do you love me" he questioned Mew.
Mew nodded.
" Even if we part? " He questioned again.

" I will always love no matter who comes or goes. You will remain my love. " Mew said sincerely making Gulf teary again.

" You know like they show in movies" Mew tried joking though he was still crying.

Gulf knew making Mew understand his feelings were difficult. He wasn't expressive , he doesn't know. And Mew sees his past self in Gulf.

But he can't let it go. Mew is sliding from his hands and he can't just take it.

" Do me Mew" He said all of sudden getting Mew's attention.

" What Gulf" Mew asked sniffing with a confused face.

" Make love . For the first and last time" Gulf said looking at Mew hopefully.

" No. You're not thinking right. Sleep nong" Mew panicked.

Gulf straddled him and said.
"I want a parting gift. Is it too much to ask?"

Mew " you'll regret it. You're emotional now"

Gulf" Am I that repulsive or you that incompetent". He would never think like that of them both but he just wanted to push Mew.

" GULF" Mew said in a little higher tone.
" Please" Gulf pleaded.

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// Phew lot of tears.