The Beauty of Tragedy

02 - my doctor

The Shattered Chemistry of Illusion

I REMEMBER when my grandmother said "We'll meet a person, not because we're meant to be but to teach us a lesson that there's no always a rainbow after the rain but it has a new beginning to start a day." I always wanted to be a doctor, since I was a child. Sometimes, I'd think that I'm born to be a Doctor. Now I'm pursuing what I really want. I'm Elleana Alde, 2nd year college.

"Love? Are you done?" Aki asked. He's my boyfriend since senior high school. We've been together for almost 4years.

"Ah, yes love. Let's go?" I responded while getting my things.

"Let's go, where do wanna eat? Are you tired? I'll cook for you, let's go to my condo." That's my boyfriend. Caring, sweet, thoughtful and yes almost perfect. Almost, because no one's perfect.

"In condo, love because I'm really tired." I said.

"Alright! To my condo it is."

We went to his condo. I'm reading a thick medical book while waiting for him to finish cooking. Aki is an engineering student, we're both busy but I'm busier than him, but he's understanding and that's what I'm thankful about. I'm already seeing my future in his eyes, I don't see myself loving other man. If it's not Aki, then it's also a no for me.

"Ah my future Doctor is so busy. You'll take care of our future children, okay?" he said while putting the food he cooked in the table.

"Of course." I agreed while walking towards him.

It's been 2weeeks since Aki and I saw each other. I've been busy with my studies so now that my schedule is free I'm planning to go to his condo. I dialed his number to inform him that I'm coming over, after three rings he finally picked up.

"Hello? Who's this? Uh Aki is in the bathroom e, hihi." The girl in other line said while giggling.

I dropped my cellphone as my scorching tears flowed in my cheeks. How could he do this to me? What did I do to deserve it? Then it hit me. Yeah, right, I'm always away from him because of my chosen field. I'm always busy studying that's why. Is it bad to pursue my dreams? It hurts like hell but I still need to talk to him to confirm everything.

I let days passed to calm and keep myself composed before I talked to him. I sighed heavily when I saw him walking towards me. I can't still accept that this man became my world but ended up hurting me.

"Hey love!" I shivered as he called me using our endearment.

"Did you cheated on me?" I directly said while talking to myself not to cry. I'm not mad, I can't, I love him so much.

I saw him stilled at my question and said.

"I'm sorry Elle. I- I didn't mean to, I'm sorry love! I'm really sorry. I'm really sorry!" he said while sobbing.

"Hey, it's fine. I understand. I have shortcomings so I understand. I understand Aki but I need to let you go. I love you so much, Aki." I sob while getting ready to leave.

I stopped reminiscing our past when I heard a loud cry from a little girl. 10 years had passed and I became a successful Doctor but I haven't moved on yet.

"Doc, there's a minor car accident and a little girl was severely damaged." a nurse told me, so I hurriedly asked to ready the OR. After a long operation the little girl is now safe and moved to the private room. I saw the little girl's parent inside the room.

"How's my daughter, Doc?" Aki, worriedly asked, yes it's Aki's daughter.

"The patient is now stable, Sir." I said in a cold tone.

"Thank you so much, Doc" he said.

I just nodded and didn't bother to utter another words. It hurts. So much. It's always been him.

"Elyse, this is Tita Elle." I was stunned when he introduced me to his another daughter. Why? Why did he introduced me to his daughter? Is he that insensitive?

I smiled at the little girl while stopping my tears to fall.

"I gotta go" I exited myself, as I walked out my tears also starts to roll down. This love is making me weak. Maybe, maybe this is what my grandma said I need to start a new beginning and stop myself from expecting a rainbow after the rain.