A dreaded choice Hosie and Hizzie

I don't know why

This moment, me holding her felt like it lasted a life time... i could hear her heart beating a million miles per minute making me crack a small smile.

Her eyes dart away for a second and i take it as a sign to let go, letting an awkard cough escape my mouth as i scratch the back of my head, turning completely around.

"I guess you're back to shutting me out again" Lizzie says sarcastically.

I don't say a word... i knew if i did i'd tell her.

"I can't believe you... you're so fucking annoying, No one could see that and say we don't have a single ounce of chemistry.. you're just deflecting" Lizzie hisses, now becoming aggrivated.

I pick up my bucket and sponge hinting to the fact i was leaving.

Almost like it was all depending on it, small raindrops fell onto our heads... quickly turning into heavier and more agressive rain as it swept across our faces.

"Fine." Lizzie's voice cracks, as she stubbornly swept down to grab her supplies, now drenched in rain.

I could ignore her all i wanted, but i couldn't outrun it... not anymore, She was what i wanted and she must feel it too.

"You know what" I sharply reply ,dropping my buckets and sponge to turn and face the girl.

"I've tried so fucking hard... thinking of all the excuses to stop, i completely ignored you for two weeks but it hasn't stopped, no matter how hard i try i can't outrun it and you're right" I let out quickly.

Rain came quicker as now we were drenched head to toe, water flowing down both of our faces.

"Can't outrun what" Lizzie asks sharply, also dropping her buckets and sponge.

Tension was rising, just both of us, metres apart yet so close mentally... it was happening.

"That no matter how hard i try i can't get you out of my fucking head Saltzman, I try hate you, i try hate your perfect smile, i try hate how you make me feel, i try hate how you have so much control over me... but in the end i end up hating myself" I Stressfully tell her, I tried to hate her... but i couldn't.

"I-" I go to let out, but realise its easier to show her, If i was to feel guilty and hate myself for something, it would be this.

I rush towards her, rain flowing over our faces as i grasp her face in my hands and wrap connect our lips once more.

I'd always told myself 'i couldn't do this to Josie' but it was time for me to be selfish.

Lizzie's hands caressed my back and thighs, eventually pulling my thighs up to wrapping my legs around her waist in a carrying position.

My back comes crashing against the wall as her tongue enters my mouth... this felt so right.

Lizzie's hands grazed everywhere... i didn't know what she felt, but this was good for me, instead of running from my feelings, having a makeout session with them was up on my list too.

The rain got heavier as strikes of lightning illumiated Lizzie's face as water dripped down it... 

"Girls, i think a storms coming, i'll finish it from he-" The head teacher stops in his tracks seeing us two.

Both of us drop what we're doing instantly as we attempt to deflect the conversation while re-adjusting our clothes.

"Um.. yeah" Lizzie grabs her cleaning supplies as i do the same, both rushing past the Alaric.

Lizzie begins to laugh after we get out of sight.

"You're not going to go back to ignoring me now are you" Lizzie smirks as we enter the school, dripping wet.

"I'll think about it" I say sarcastically as we throw our buckets down and head towards the dorms.

"You  know... you could always come back to our dorm... i wouldn't hate you for it" Lizzie jokes.

"I got to speak to Josie... Before she finds out" I explain.

Lizzie nods and heads back  to hers... I had to break it off with Josie, I couldn't hide it anymore.