A few hours went by of us talking about how we wanted our life to be once this was all over. An alarm went off. Hawks sighed. "It's time for your next dose." He said. I was really glad for the pain to be temporarily over, but I knew that Hawks wasn't excited. He sent a feather after the drug and gave it to me. I took a deep breath and lit it. "You remember all the things I told you, right? I can't hear you. Sometimes you have to get in my face for me to see you. Don't panic if I throw up or start having a bad trip. If you need to tell me something, write it down or say it while I'm facing you. And finally, I can still feel you. Actually, feeling you is kinda comforting." "Got it. And don't hesitate to ask me for help if you need it. I'm right here, okay?" I nodded and took a puff. A few moments later, I started to get dizzy and my vision went cloudy around the edges. "Okay Ha- Keigo. I'm probably about to lose my hearing." Right on cue, I started to hear yelling. I closed my eyes and put the back of my head against the wall. My father's voice stopped and I heard screaming. I had been trying to block this memory. I heard a little boy sobbing and running to me. I could envision every part of this memory. I could feel him hugging me and I saw him looking up to me and crying. Wondering what he did to deserve this. This wasn't even a part of the trip, this memory was just so vivid. I felt like crying. "Fuck." I said out loud. Hawks put his hand on mine. I opened my eyes. He had a paper with the question "What's happening?" on it. "You remember Shoto?" I asked. He nodded. "I was the one who helped him the night he got that scar. Endeavor pushed her so much that she lost it. She poured boiling water on his face. I just remember him screaming and then running to find me. He came into my arms and was just sobbing. The whole time I bandaged him, he just kept asking "Why does mom hate me?" "What did I do wrong?" "Do I really look like dad?" "Why don't mom and dad love me?" "Why can't I just play with Fuyumi and Natsuo like you do now?" and so many other horrible questions. That was the night I decided to leave. I still hate myself for not staying with him. Or maybe I could have taken everyone and left. Fuyumi and mom would be too scared, but I still should have at least tried." Hawks looked at me and hugged me. It felt so nice. When he pulled away, my quirk activated in my hands. I pulled him back and it stopped. We fell asleep like that.
