His Songbird

chapter 17

Zara's pov

I was nervous to sing this song, I would bare my thoughts and feelings to all but I also hoped it would free me to. The music started playing as eyes fell on me and the lights slightly dimmed.

I just wanna run away
Find somewhere that feels safe
Find somewhere the bad days
Don't come as often in this sad phase
Somewhere I can be loved
Where I don't have to run away from my flaws
And I don't have to be afraid of my thoughts
This high, this high that I've been chasing.

Doesn't have an exit
I don't learn my lesson
I don't see no endin' in sight
I don't feel the best when I try
Holdin' my head up high but it's not workin'
Makin' you cry makes me feel like a bad person (Bad person)
And something's got a hold on me
They don't see the world I see
Heartbeat in my chest feels weak
It's really startin' to weigh on me, yeah

I just wanna run away
And find somewhere that feels safe
Find somewhere the bad days
Don't come as often in this sad phase
Somewhere I can be loved
Where I don't have to run away from my flaws
And I don't have to be afraid of my thoughts
With this high, this high that I've been chasing

Always likes the sad trip
And ruin all my friendships
Way too many questions in my mind
I don't have the answers but I try
Holdin' my head up high but it's not workin', yeah
Making you sad makes me feel like a bad person (Bad person, person)
I said some awful things last week
Messin' with my self-esteem
Mixed up my priorities
It's really startin' to weigh on me, yeah

I just wanna run away
Find somewhere that feels safe
Find somewhere the bad days
Don't come as often in this sad phase
Somewhere I can be loved
Where I don't have to run away from my flaws
And I don't have to be afraid of my thoughts
This high, this high that I've been chasing

As the song ended I looked into the crowd and saw a few teary eyes, I looked over to Bucky and Nat, the others who were all staring at me with watery eyes. As I walked off the stage the crowd was clapping at my performance. I walked back over to Bucky who wrapped me in a hug,

"You sang beautifully doll and everyone heard you loud and clear"

He pulled away and I smiled up at him, he was so caring and gently, my heart fluttered whenever he looked at me and touched me. Nat came over to me and hugged me,

"Well done Zara, ready to sing for Bucky?" she whispered in my ear.

I blushed and nodded, I hope my feelings will come across. I waited for them to call my name, after a few other people were called up they announced my name again. When I got back up on stage I whispered to the band telling them I wanted to sing my two songs back to back. They agreed and the music for my first song started playing, Nat made sure that Bucky paid attention.

I see your monsters, I see your pain
Tell me your problems, I'll chase them away
I'll be your lighthouse, I'll make it okay
When I see your monsters, I'll stand there so brave
And chase them all away

In the dark we, we, we stand apart
We, we never see that the things we need
Are staring right at us

You just wanna hide, hide, hide
Never show your smile, smile
Stand alone when you need someone
It's the hardest thing of all

That you see are the bad, bad, bad memories
Take your time and you'll find me

I find Buck's face and stare into his eyes as I sing.