(A/N you should listen to Please don't go by Barcelona I just really love that song and it fits with the whole book in general.)
I began walking home but before I officially went inside I stopped by the park I had talked to matt at. I sat down at the same bench and I was kind of upset. I didn't know that me just wanting some peace and quiet for a few days would backfire on my friendship with him.
I sat there continuing to freeze my ass off. I was waiting to see if Matt would show up out of no where and let me stay with him but that type of shit only happens in. Fairytales and fanfics. I felt a drop on my hand so I looked up and saw that it was lightly snowing. I quickly got up and began walking home.
I was looking down while walking. It's a habit .. I never look up. I almost slipped a few times due to ice that was previously on the ground. It started snowing even harder and I could barely see.
I looked up for just a second and because I wasn't paying attention I slipped and fell. That's great.
I got up before anyone spotted me. Last time I fell.. Well that's didn't turn out well.
I walked away from the situation and continued on the journey to my house. I was almost there I could see the house. Thank God. I just don't want to face my dad. I really hope he's not too pissed. This man could truly kill me. He should go get some help.
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I arrived at my house. I was standing there nervous. I knocked on the door. No answer. I knocked again.. Nothing. I turned the knob and it was unlocked.
Oh fuck.
I cautiously walked inside. The first thing I did was walk to the kitchen to see if anyone was there. No one was in there. That's a good sign. I checked the bathroom and it was clear. I was going to check the basement but the lights don't work down there and it's always so cold.
I just locked the door and continued the search.
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I had checked all of the rooms and he was no where to be found. Maybe he's at the hospital trying to look for me? I mean I didn't see his car on the way in. I just hope he isn't pissed because he went to the hospital for nothing.
I went upstairs into my room and sat on my bed. Where is my dad? It not like I want to see him or anything but where did he disappear to? More importantly why the hell was the front door open?
I want to talk to Matt. He can't just not talk to me. He's my friend. But that's not stopping him from talking to me now.
I grabbed my phone from my back pocket. I went down a contacts and clicked on Matt's name.
L- Hi..
M- Can we talk? Are you still at the hospital ?
L- no. I'm at home.. are you still mad at me?
M- I was never mad.
Lies.
L- What do you want to talk about?
M- Can I .. Come over? So we can talk.
L- sure I'm not going anywhere.
M- I'll be there in 5. Bye.
L- see you soon.
If he isn't mad why was he avoiding me earlier? Who knows maybe he really did have a full house. I just hope he isn't mad me.
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Matt and I were sitting on the bed in complete silence. It was almost awkward. Like when we first met. I decided to break the silence and say something.
"So.. You wanted to talk about something?"
"Yeah.. I'm sorry I was kind of rude. I'm not mad at you.. I thought you were embarrassed of me and you just wanted to make it seem like you weren't talking to anyone to make me feel better." He started
"That's no-"
"Let me finish." He said cutting me off.
"I saw you with those boys in McDonalds. I saw you talking to the short one with the shorter hair. What's his name? Who cares.. The one who hurt you. Seeing you with him hurt my feelings because you said you didn't want to talk to anyone yet you're talking to them.. Them out of all people.." He sighed then continued.
"I hope you know I could never stay mad at you. I love you Loren. Okay."
"I love you too. You're a really good friend. I wouldn't try to hurt you on purpose. He was just trying to explain.."
"No, no.."
No?
"What..?"
"I love you Loren."
I laughed and started nodding my head.
"I know.. I love you too Matt."
"no! Loren I love you. I like you.."
Oh.
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Yikes lmao 😂😁
