10:34pm
The clock read. I was exhausted. Matt didn't put me back in the handcuffs, but he wasn't going to let me go either. I know he likes me but that's not something I want to focus on at the moment. Did we forget he kidnapped me for his own selfish needs?
Our friendship may have been fake to him but to me it wasn't. I felt like we genuinely had a good connection. That is until he started getting weird. When he first tried to kiss me I thought it would just stop there but it didn't.
He started to scare me. Yes I loved him he was my best friend but I didn't love him like he wanted me to. There couldn't have been a Matt and I anyways. You know why? Because I don't do relationships.
I wouldn't dare get into a relationship and go down the same road I went down. I cried for so long from heartbreak but also because I fell in love with someone who didn't even love me back. He cheated on me and rubbed it in my face.
I know it's in the past, but I don't care. I don't care about anything other than getting the fuck out of here and going home. I don't want to be here anymore. I'm scared. I have nothing to do, Matt is being really sketchy and he keeps being all bipolar.
I'm not even sure he's here. It's really quiet and I heard a door slam about an hour ago. Maybe this is my chance to sneak out? I got up from the bed and walked over to the door. I went to go open it but it was locked from the outside.
Cool.
I don't have anything to pick at the lock either. I mean it's not like that actually works anyways. I've tried before. I sighed and looked out the window it was pitch black out.
I heard the sound of a door slamming. I panicked and quickly went back on the bed. There were footsteps outside the door. I wasn't scared but almost. I don't know why Matt hasn't really done anything to me.
The door knob started to turn then it opened. It was slowly opened by.. Nash? What the fuck is he doing here?
"Loren oh my god you're okay." He sighed running over to me and engulfing me into a hug.
"Yeah, why wouldn't I be?" I asked. He sighed and sat down on the bed.
"Matt is dangerous. I'm here to help you."
"How did you know I was even here?" I asked confused.
"Look this is no time for questions. We need to leave before Matt gets back." He tried pulling my arm so I would get up but I snatched it back. Matt hasn't done anything that bad to me so he obviously isn't that dangerous.
"I'm not going anywhere with you. If I leave in putting myself at risk because I left. At least Matt hasn't killed me, yet."
He looked confused. I just stared at him as he walked to the door. He turned around and gave a look.
"Are you fucking serious?" He scoffed. "I'm trying to keep you safe and you're staying here? With him. Suit yourself. I tried to help you. Don't ask me to again. Trust me when I say this." He began to walk out the door.
What's the big deal if I want to stay anyways? Like I said if Matt wanted to hurt me he would have already. I mean he sort of did by grabbing my face until it was numb, twice. But that's besides that fact that I'm not dead so he's doing an okay job. For his crazy psychotic ass.
But I love him. As a friend of course. No matter what I will always think of him as a friend because in a way we helped each other. Even if it was fake. I didn't think so.
The door slammed harder this time making me jump. I heard running up the stairs and it was Matt. Shit.
He saw that the room door was open and his face turned red. He was pissed. I think he was more than pissed he was fuming. Then I remembered why. The door locks from the outside.
"How did you open the door? I trusted you. I fucking trusted you. Did you try to leave? Do you really think you're leaving me?" He almost laughed walking towards me.
I got up from the bed and tried to run passed him. Why? I don't know. Don't ask. It was a dumb idea because he grabbed me by my shirt. I'm no track star and I'm not a basketball player I couldn't dodge him and get away.
"You're gonna wish you didn't do that baby."
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I don't know. I like Matt like this 😂 I just find it hot. which isn't a good thing but oh well. Bad boy Matt. Yup it's nice.
Loren pisses me off tho. Idk why she just makes me mad.
