The talk went alright? I mean to be honest I didn't really bother listening to anything he had to say. I already heard everything he had to say. He mainly just repeated what Cameron said and it bored me.
I am not trying to be a bitch when I say that either. I just don't like the fact that any of this happened to me. Plus Matt is mad at me so that doesn't help anything. He can't like me. It isn't right.
I can't like my good friend. I can but I don't want to ruin the friendship. I have been fucked over before getting into a "thing" with someone I trusted. He fucked me over so bad. I ended up crying myself to sleep. He acted like nothing has ever happened. He got a girlfriend and rubbed it in my face.
It was terrible because I really liked this guy. That's the main reason why I don't like relationships. Nothing good ever lasts forever. As much as I look at couples and end up saying "goals." Or something of that manner I end up remembering that one guy who fucked me over.
I hate the idea of dating. I don't care what anyone says. I won't date anyone. I would rather die and be alone than to be miserable and hurt because some guy really messed with your head.
I know that has nothing to do with Matt but he's just a friend. I could never see myself with him. Or anyone at that. I'm not saying he's not my type.. No I'm just saying I'm not the relationship type of person.
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[at school]
I was expecting Matt to ignore me today. I didn't want him to but I understand. I turned him down. Shit happens.
I walked into Mr. Fiege's class and all eyes were on me. I don't remember doing anything wrong.
"How was the hospital?" Some kid asked with a smug grin on his face
I ignored that comment and sat down at the very front desk next to the door. When the class was over I wanted to be the first to leave.
The first bell rang and more people started to enter the classroom. I didn't see matt. I know he wasn't going to skip school because he was mad at me. Would he?
Just as I was thinking that he walked in the room. He glanced at me then walked straight up to the teacher. He started asking the teacher something. I couldn't hear anything because he was whispering.
Once they were done talking Matt gave me one last glare then walked to the back of the room. He sat next to Jack. One of the kids who bullied him and pushed him into the locker. The kid I saved him from.
What?
That confuses me. How do you become friends with your bully in one day? I even saved him from getting an ass whooping and he goes and sits right next to him? What are they friends now? That makes no sense. He gets mad at me then starts talking to his bully?
I'm overreacting. He wouldn't do that. I overreact a lot. I shouldn't cared.
The last bell rang dragging me out of my thoughts. I need to talk to matt after class.
"Today we are going to continue with the projects. Remember they are due on Wednesday. If you don't have them on Wednesday it's an automatic zero. I will not be accepting any late work. Get with your partners." Mr. Fiege explained
Matt won't even talk to me. How in world am I supposed to work on a project with him?
I got up to walk to his desk but Jack was still sitting next to him. Wonderful.
"What do you want?" He asked with a scowl planted on his face.
"I'm working with Matt on the project. Can you get up?" I asked
