Why do i feel like this.? ~Tokomaru~

The bathroom

"W-What d-do you want.?" Toko said hiding her head from all the tears coming from her face. I walk into the stall with Toko sitting on the toilet crying, she was so upset.. "Toko I.. Sayaka meant it as a joke." I say looking down at the floor. "E-E-Even if i-it wasn't a j-j-joke and w-we got tog-together.. w-would you s-s-still break my heart.?" She said looking up at me with a glare. "B-Because if we k-k-kissed y-you w-would probably H-HAVE to d-d-date me, t-then y-you would break my h-heart." She looked down at the floor like i did. "Why would i have too.?" I say with a sad look. "B-Because y-y-you w-would uhm.. f-feel b-ba-bad."Toko said. "That makes no sense, I know your stressed. How about we go get some fruit punch of something to cheer you up." I say looking up at her with a smile, I reach out my hand and she takes it. We leave the bathroom and head over to the snack bar, she had a firm grip on my hand as if she was scared to her core. I rub her hand with my thumb assuring it would be okay. We reached the snack bar and we sat down next to Yasuhiro who was eating a brownie. "Wacha need? Kiyotaka is on break, i can get ya somethin'!" Yasuhiro said smiling at us with his eyes closed. "J-J-Just some f-fruit punch."  Toko said with a disgusted look on her face. Yasuhiro got up and went behind the counter and got 2 glasses. He poured some fruit punch in the glasses and handed them to us. "Here ya go!" He said smiling again, his smile was always creepy if im being honest. "K-Komaru?" Toko said holding my hand tightly, I looked over at her with my confused face. "W-W-What if this i-i-i-is wine?." She said in a shaky sad tone. "I dont think it is, do you want me to taste it?" I say making sure that nothing bad would happen to her, she nodded her head slowly looking down at the floor. I took a sip and it was just fruit punch, i looked over at Toko and smiled. "W-What does th-th-that mean?!" She said confused. I assured her it was just fruit punch as i handed it to her. She took the glass of fruit punch and took a drink.