Dawn of the Lion

章 21

"Ano?! Ano gusto mong mangyari?! Gusto mo, maghiwalay tayo?! O'sige! Kung 'yan ang gusto mo! Puro ka naman ganiyan!"

"Puro kasi sarili mo ang iniisip mo," I cried when I felt pain in my heart. "Ganiyan mo na lang ako iiwan? Ha?" I slightly punched his chest.

"It's your decision not mine!" He shouted back at me.

"B..But you agreed with me? Really?! Wala ka na talagang iniisip no?!" I sobbed.

"Aw, you did well, my baby." Jackie caressed my hair as we finished practicing the script. Tinutulungan niya 'kong magpractice ngayon dahil malapit na ulit ang shooting. Nandito kaming dalawa sa office niya, nakaupo kami sa couch. "You did so great," He wiped my tears and kissed my forehead.

"Nasaktan ako, pakiramdam ko totoong maghihiwalay tayo." I chuckled as I wiped my tears away. "Hindi ko yata kaya talaga..." I sighed and leaned my back on his chest.

"Wag mo isipin, 'di naman mangyayari e'." He started caressing my hair. "You can marry me anytime kahit mag 60 years old na tayo, it's okay. It's fine, you decide." He said as he rested his chin on the top of my head.

"Jackie, bakit lagi na lang ako? Paano naman 'yong ikaw?" I asked and looked up to him. "Hindi naman... pwedeng ako na lang lagi... Pwedeng tayong dalawa 'yong magdecide, pwedeng ikaw. Sana mutual, mahal." I said while tracing his chin using my thumb.

"Ikaw lang naman kasi ang inaantay ko, Selene." He said while brushing my hair using his hand. He held my chin and made me looked up to him. "I don't want to give you pressure, my love." He left a soft peck on my lips. "Once we got married, and have kids, mawawalan ka na ng oras sa showbiz... You still have enough time to think," He kissed my forehead.

I really love how Jackie always reminds me about time, that we have enough time to plan and decide for our marriage. I know, he wants to get married as soon as possible, he's just waiting for me. But for my case, I still don't want to get married because I still have an on-going career, na nagsisimula pa lang lumago nang sobra.

We don't have a problem with money, I know he can provide for me and our family, sobra sobra pa nga kung iisipin. But I'm still young to get married, I want to enjoy this phase where-in I'm enjoying my showbiz career na sobrang tagal kong pinagtrabahuhan.

"What are you thinking?" He asked with his husky voice, he's tired. I know. "Are you okay?" He asked while looking into my eyes. Umiwas ako ng tingin dahil mababasa niya kapag nagsinungaling ako.

"I'm okay." I lied, I felt pressured and somehow, guilty.

"No, you're not." He held my chin again and forced me to look at him. "Why? Selene, you're always like this when we're talking about marriage." I knew it, alam kong sasabihin niya 'yan because he's a great observant. "I told you not to be pre-"

"Pakiramdam ko... nasasayang lang 'yong buhay ko sa showbiz na 'to." I sighed while looking into his eyes. "Pwede naman kitang pakasalan na lang agad," Huminga akong malalim at isinandal ko ang noo ko sa dibdib niya. "Pwede namang magsimula na ng pamilya kasama ka agad.." I whispered.