"I hated being called his Rosa. Every man that had me for a night was sure to remind me that I wasn't human anymore. I wasn't a person anymore. I mean how could I be? A person has a soul, and by that time I had already gave it up to the devil." Jade...
Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
Jade
"She's dilated ten centimeters! Alert Dr. Warren!" The nurse screams and panic fills my ears.
It all happened so fast. It felt like I'm out my body staring at the situation unfold.
Child birth. They say it's supposed to be a beautiful natural thing. But they forgot to tell us about the hours of contractions, what seems like endless hours of pushing pure pain, and the feeling of being ripped on.
They also forgot to tell you, that victims of sexual assault which results into pregnancy, have the worst experience in labor.
"I-I can't bring her into this world! It's a sick place! No! I don't want to push!" I fight against this. I fight against bring a small human being into this world.
It's innocent. This small human was created from pure evil but I do believe it is innocent.
"Ma'am you have to push or this baby will die." The doctor says almost begging as if we racing against time.
"Jade you can do this. Bring her into the world like we planned and. she will be safe. Remember? Like we all planned." Diandra says as I grip her hand.
"We'll all make sure she's safe like you wanted." Iris says as Scarlett nods frantically.
"Just push Jade. We just need you to push for a few minutes." Scarlett says she and Iris wraps their hands around mine.
I nod and take deep breath as Dr. Warren instructed moments before. I make eye contact with her and nod. She gives me a nod back signaling me to push.
And I do so; with all my strength I push. It felt like a huge rock is ripping through my uterus; destroying my body from the inside out in the process.
I grunt and squeeze onto the girls hands as I continue to push. Exhaustion hits me as I collapse back on the bed.
"I-I'm not strong enough." I whisper breathlessly.
"Yes you are! Jade you been through some unspeakable shit. You got this. Just keep pushing." Diandra chants causing me to sit up once more.
I give this push all the strength and energy I could muster up with in.
"She's almost here! Give me a big push!" Dr. Warren exclaims and it felt like the air was knocked out of me.
"SHE!?" Diandra, Scarlett, Iris and I scream altogether startling some of the nurses and Dr. Warren.
However, Dr. Warren chuckles lightly nonetheless, " Yes, you're having a girl. Now let's bring her into this world." She says and tears escape me eyes as my mind fills with a thousand thoughts.
The fluorescent ceiling lights become brighter and making everything more hot. The sounds of the girls chanting me to push fades. The sounds of the bustle of the labor room evaporates.
The whole room stills and everything goes black. ~~~~ "JADE!" Antonio screams shaking me as I jolt awake mid scream.
I quickly search my surroundings, feeling a bit less tense now that I know I am in Antonio's room.
I can feel the uncontrollable tears fall down my cheeks as a sob breaks out into me. I grip Antonio shirt and let myself crumb and break down. The dream wasn't just a dream. It was a real, haunting memory.
Antonio quickly scoops me into his arms, surrounding me with his warm embrace. His hands rubs my head and back soothingly rocking me ever so lightly.
After a while I sit up and wipe away my tears. Mentally building up the blocks again to protect my vulnerability.
"Mi amore..." Antonio begins but stops once I crawl out the bed and stand.
"I'm fine." I state curtly before walking to the bathroom.
I splash cold water on my face before taking in a breath. That memory I always try to bury deep in the dark parts of my brain.
But she turned three yesterday. She somewhere out there. Not knowing her true identity; where she really came from. And I am okay with that.
Because I couldn't live with myself if she knew who her biological father is. Or who she knew what her book mother has become; a monster. She was created by monsters. I couldn't raise her knowing I hate my own self, and I would grow to resent her. I don't want to but, if she grew to look like him, I would hate her.
So the best thing I ever don in my shitty life was let her go. She's safe, Diandra made sure of it. She's with a loving couple that raises her in upstate New York.
"Jade, listen I know what you're going through—" Antonio stops mid sentence when my head snaps up to face him.
My glare could easily kill him if looks had that affect on people.
"You don't have a single clue. You don't know what I go through, or what I been through. You think because you hired some private investigator, that you know me?" I ask my voice raising a bit.
Antonio sighs, "Look, that's not what I meant. I'm just trying to be there for you. If this is going to work between us then we need to be open with each other."
I scoff, "Aren't you the same guy that didn't want to tell me what happens with Zero? What he had said when you interrogated him? You can't even tell me if he's dead or alive! I don't even know where he is in this house!"
"I told you that what I do with Zero is fucking personal!" He shouts back.
His anger and temper has been like thin ice. Anything can break it nowadays.
"And my life! My past is personal! So please don't try to fix me! I don't need to be fixed! I'm not broken anymore! Damaged beyond repair, yes! But I'm not broken." I say the last part lowly and Antonio face softens a bit.
"I'm a damaged person who have demons that haunt her every day. I was doomed from the start. I decided to be a monster to kill a monster. Monsters don't get happy endings." I whisper softly before looking up into his eyes.
"Jade—"
"Jade! Jade!" Scarlett's voice shouts as she races into the room. Her voice filled with panic.
I meet her halfway, looking at her frantic state as she holds up a phone, "It's Iris... She sent out a signal... They're in trouble. It's the cartel." She says breathlessly and my eyes snap back to an angry Antonio.
"The cartels." I state dreading it to be the truth.
AN:
Are you ready for an Iris POV!?😧😱
In the next few chapters I'm going to up the action. And a face to face moment we've all been anticipating...🤭😧
