Jake Murry one shots

look at her

I woke up to the usual sound, the sound of my alarm blaring even if I could feel hot much later it was today then usual. I sat up and quickly silenced it rubbing my eyes to reveal the most beautiful sight in the world 

"Hello angel" I smiled moving close to her little crib not even an inch from my bed, she was fast asleep in her little butterfly onzie I moved as quietly as I could to get up and hurry to the bathroom doing my usual stuff and turning the shower on as hot as it would go, I grabbed my favorite soap bar and scrubbed myself silly. Once I returned with my towel she was up and crying so I picked her up giving her a gentle cuddle letting her feed as she usually does. I got her clean and dressed before getting dressed too doing my hair and make up best I could having to juggle her too. I checked the time and put her in her little pram with her blankets and her plushie bunny "you ready?" I asked her but no response "come on angel. Let's get see daddy" I told her I locked up and headed down the corridor going into the lift listening to the full music. I pushed the pram out the building and down the streets being careful not to knock her about too much but she went to sleep as soon as we got outside. I went down that streets until I arrived at the bus stop having a seat beside an older woman with the bus pass on a lanyard 

"Ohhh what a beautiful baby" she smiled "how old?" She asks peaking in the pram

"Two months just gone" I smiled

"Ohh aren't you a sweetie" she smiled "where's your daddy at little one?"

"We're going to go visit him aren't we?" I smiled giving my little girls cheek a stroke 

"The number four?" She asked and I nodded "hum." She huffed turning away from us but what did I care. When the bus came I bought a ticket and carefully brought on my pram much to the annoyance of everyone else I took a seat where I could hold the pram slowly knocking it to keep her sleeping as we rode the whole way until I saw the end way and the stop I got up and quickly got off thanking the driver as I left. 

I pushed the pram down the old road, minding cracks and fallen branches, it was so grey here, the building, the sky, the fences. 

As soon as I got close the gate was pulled open 

"Hurry come on your the last one" he said so I hurried inside the gates "checks in the door" he said pointing across the way I nodded even if I knew the way pushing the pram along the courtyard. And up into the building they did the checks of my bag and my clothes as usual even checking my pram before letting me thought to a room where many others were waiting a few of the women I knew from other visits smiled and came to have a look in the pram but it was cut short by security ushering us into the main corridor. I staid back keeping the pram close they opened the doors letting people pour in going to the various tables. 

As soon as I got in I searched for him and smiled seeing him sat at a table by the bar covered windows, in his white button down and jeans fixing his hair as he waited. I smiled and went over which made him stand "y/n!" 

"Hi Jake" 

"Hi" he blushed "how uhh… how are you doing?"

"Better now" I nodded 

"Good. I'm so sorry y/n" he said breaking down collapsing into a hug with me "I wanted to be with you so badly. I wanted to be there."

"It's okay jake. It's not your fault" I smiled giving his cheek a kiss and wiping away a few stray tears "could I have a kiss?"

"Of course you can" he smiled giving my lips a little kiss 

"What is this?" I asked glaring at the stubble on his face 

"They where out of razors" he sighed 

"It's fine." I giggled 

"Could uhh could I meet her?" He asked excitedly and I nodded having a seat and he sat beside me as I carefully picked her up 

"Jake. Meet your daughter" I smiled holding her in my arms and he lost it

"Awwwwwww! Look how big you are. Nawww look at your little nose. Aww your the most beautiful little thing I've ever seen" he cooed over her "you have tiny hands, tiny little hands. You are so small! So small and so cute" 

"Would you like to hold her?'

"You mean it?'

"Jake come on you can hold her" I laughed gently passing her over showing him how to hold her correctly 

"Hi. Hey little girly. It's daddy" he smiled to her 

"Rosie jake"

"I know. I remember her name. I just like calling her my little girly" he smiled "I am sorry y/n, I wanted to be there. To hold your hand and watch her be born… I'm sorry. I did everything I could and it still wasn't enough"

"Ohh jake. I don't mind you missed it. I know you tried your best. But your here if ever I need you" I smiled giving him a kiss 

"I always will be. Until the let me out. Then I am never leaving my girls again" 

"Good, it's alright jake maybe you can be there to hold my hand for the next one"

"The next one?" He laughs a little sheepishly 

"Ummmm. That's a few years off though"

"Good, because if I do get you pregnant again I wanna be there every step of the way my darling" 

"You will be. For the next one. But for now we just have to visit you" I smiled

"Thank you. For letting me finally meet her. My little girl. My little baby girl, I never imagined she'd be so beautiful" 

"It's okay I cried when she was born"

"So did I. Just alone in my cell wishing I was there. To see her be born"

"Well atleast she finally got to meet her daddy" I smiled giving him a sweet kiss.