Duality |Postlude| Jikook/Kookmin

Chapter 12

Jungkook

I bite my lip, head spinning as I play with my hands during the interview. It's over the radio, so he isn't as nerve wracking as it would if it was on television, but I can't help but feel the pressure.

"What is one thing you want to do?" The interviewer asks Jimin, breaking me from my daze.

"Ah, I'd like to go on a trip with Jungkook," Jimin says with a smirk and I look at him, my breath catching in my throat as my fidgeting stills.

The interviewer laughs. "What about you, Jungkook?"

"I'd like to go on a trip with my brother," I lie.

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I pace around the bathroom, my nerves at an all-time high. I've been planning this since forever. When I first learned Jimin wanted to go on a trip with me, I was scared. Since he was always teasing me, I had trouble discerning the teasing from the truth.

But when I was seventeen and Jimin was in the states, I started pondering more about the potentiality of a trip with just Jimin and me. As Taehyung and other members of the friend group got to visit Jimin, I was stuck in high school, receiving drunken messages from Taehyung about all of his and Jimin's escapades.

So I set out to plan the ultimate trip with Jimin for his birthday. I just needed to gather the confidence to ask him and have him come home. There were two different versions of this trip: one for just friends, one for lovers. Honestly, I didn't think Jimin would actually want to be mine, so I focused more on the former of the two. But as I got older, I became more wishful, so when I booked our hotel room, I ended up booking a couples room because I figured either way, we'd sleep in the same bed.

My eyes land on the blond who is sprawled out on the bed, yet still remains graceful at the same time. He doesn't look at me through the bathroom windows and instead focuses on his phone screen, his stolen pair of Namjoon-AirPods in his cute ears as he chews on his plump bottom lip. All he's wearing is one of my oversized white t-shirts and a pair of black briefs.

I leave the bathroom after gathering myself and sit at the desk, stealing glances at the breathtaking blond. His breathing is gentle as his legs rub against each other, toes clenching and unclenching the pillowy duvet beneath him. He reaches for his mug of warm honey tea, his glasses reflecting a blurred image of whatever he's watching.

He looks like a pretty pin-up poster. He's sinful, yet gorgeous, smutty, but pure.

"Why don't you go to bed, Koo?"

"Because I'm stressed and you won't get off the damn phone."

He pauses his phone and puts it face down. "You need to stop stressing so much about this trip. We should just be focusing on each other. Come, lay down. Go to sleep."

I sigh and follow his instructions, turning the light off and get under the covers while he stays on top of them. He presses play again and I pout, looking over at what he's watching.

My jaw drops.

"How could you watch porn while your boyfriend is stressed?!"

Jimin blushes. "I'm stressed too. You're making me stressed because you're stressed."

I pout, turning away from him.

A hand slips under my shirt, massaging my muscles. "Jung-kook-ie," Jimin sings, his voice sultry.

My body heats up and relaxes at the same time. "J-Jimin."

"Do you want to relieve our stress, Jungkook?"

"Y-Yes, please take care of me," I whisper, my face warming up.

Jimin's lips trail my neck and my eyes fall closed, letting go. I know Jimin hates when the people around him are troubled. Me being so stressed and his inability to take charge and help plan has been hard on him. So him being able to do this probably makes him feel better.

Goosebumps rise as my skin is overtaken by a tingling sensation. Heat travels to the pit of my stomach and pressure begins to form in my crotch. The blankets and other pesky layers of fabric are removed one by one, Jimin's hands gentle, moving with purpose.

I look at the male with love-filled eyes, finding him beautiful. It's hard to wrap my head around the fact that he's actually mine. But he is. He's my boyfriend. And I love him.

"Is it okay... if I... again?" Jimin asks quietly.

"It's okay. I don't know if I have it in me to top right now." I tell him honestly. "But I do want to do this. I mean, look at this room," I say wish a bashful grin.

"Mmm, this room exudes sex." Jimin agrees, pressing his lips to mine while palming me.

I run my fingers over his bottom lip. "You did say you wanted birthday sex."

He smirks. "I did say that, didn't I?"

When he bites down on my shoulder, I grip his waist, my breathing picking up. His fingers trace my tattoos lovingly and he offers me the most gentle of smiles. "I know you're tired, so I'll try not to tire you out too much, baby."

"It's already so early in the morning," I whisper. "But I don't want to stop."

"Then we won't." He grabs the travel-sized lube and a condom for each of us to cut down on the mess.

I stare at him as my heart pounds, the tempo picking up when he kisses my chest.

This time is easier than our first and there are fewer fumbles involved. Jimin is much more experienced than me, but something about the way he handles always has me feeling like I'm the only one.

There's no pressure to act or look a certain way with us. Everything comes naturally.

When the first digit slips in, my hands move to his hair, carding through the soft, blond locks. I control my breathing, focusing on the auxiliary touches I receive from the male. He kisses me everywhere, the feeling hot, but relaxing. My adrenaline spikes and when he adds a second finger, the pain not even registering.

I pull the blond on top of me, crashing his lips into mine, my heart exploding with an untapped desire. We breathe the same air. As he finally pushes in, a set of words come to mind, familiar, yet foreign. It's like I've heard them before, but only once. However, when I stare into Jimin's eyes and he stares back into mine, something about them just fit into place.

You are me, I am you.

Author's Note: Hmmmmm, I wonder where Jungkook has heard those words before. Anyone know the answer?

Thoughts on the chapter?

Make sure to take care and love yourself as best as you can.

With lots of love,

-BBM