Dear Delilah~Karlxoc~

~Forever?~

Hiya so I was getting bored uhh idk what to name this chapter may vary in the future anyways Anaheim hope you enjoy and song recommendations and links to come :]
-Your favorite author <3

Friday,February 4th 2025

Karl...

I  feel guilty,Problem is I don't know why I just do.I just wanted to be happy,I feel like I'm never ever going to be at ease.If I'm being honest with you.Even since she left,I can't remember the last time I was genuinely happy.And that says a lot.

Friday,February 4th 2021

Delilah...

I hate this.I hate everything.

My brain can't comprehend passionate emotions.And it sucks not being able to choose a fulfilled uncomplicated answer. I've always played out myself to be an unproblematic person.Except I'm not.Ever since I was little I always walked around hallways at school with my friends.But from the sidelines I would always see girls and boys telling each other that they loved them and that they would get married at recess.

I was disgusted by it to say the least.When I was younger I had trouble telling others how I feel,mentally and emotionally.I never knew how to tell people anything about me or my feelings.I was better off writing down my emotions rather than confessing them.So I always bottled them up which was a terrible decision ,I learned that the hard way. I never wanna make that mistake again.Even if we've only known each other for a while.It's been so long since we even talked or hung out together.I want to wait enough to know if feelings are mutual.After the avoiding him all throughout high school I want another shot.I can't mess this up again.I felt a hand softly caress my shoulder,snapping me back into my current situation.I was back from my mind sitting in Karl's car,still in the parking lot waiting to drive home.

"Are you okay?" Karl was looking at me with curiosity.

"Oh no yeah I'm fine I was just thinking" I pull away my eyes from his and look through my window, resting my chin in my palm.

"About?" He takes his hand back and proceeds to start the car and turns on the Bluetooth to connect to his phone.I freeze.

Oh hell nah I ain't talking about this shit hell no hell no help someone help me please just kiss-kill me right like seriously right now-

"Just.About what movie we should watch" I was internally screaming right now,I'm actually so glad I had a thing for acting in high school.My breath was unsteady and out of rhythm

"Well you already know my answer" He'd taken his hand back from the middle compartment and back to the steering wheel.

"Binge wat-", "Binge watch the Harry potter series I know I know" I roll my eyes and look back at him

"yeahhhh you know it what do ya say wanna wanna?" he shrugs his shoulders while still looking at the road

"I mean sure I have nothing better to do with my life" I say sarcastically as I cross my arms

He really poorly faked a frown which did not last very long before he broke character.

A little over 10 minutes later we're back at his place and I never pictured him having this nice of a house. Maybe a nice apartment at best I don't know why though but regardless we make our way to the door with bags full of our favorite snacks.

"You can just put them on the counter I'll be right back" Karl placed his bags down and went upstairs, I placed my bags with him and just decided to observe the place. I roamed the kitchen and there was nothing there, it looked like he'd just bought his house, I opened the fridge and there was just packs of monsters all different flavors. I opened the freezer to find pizza and hot pockets.

"damn is this all he eats, I mean me but still"

"Yeah I know its not much but whatever" I turn around and he has tons of blankets and pillows.

"Oh no sorry I was just looking and it's cool my fridge is like this too"

"really"

"..well no I live with a chef but I eat this when he's not home" I close the fridge and walk up to Karl grabbing some of the blankets and pillows that look like they're about to fall out of his reach.

He giggles and says thanks as he leads me to his living room.