Dear Delilah~Karlxoc~

~Notes~

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Wednesday,February 2nd 2025

Karl....

I can't do it,Every single time I hang out with Ava I still see her in the shadows created right beneath her.I really like Ava. She's super nice and sweet and amiable to me.I don't deserve her,Even though it felt as if we were content and perfect.It wasn't. No matter how many times I spend with her it will never be the same. She's really nice and caring but she'll never replace the void that used to be for Delilah.

Ava's bright blue eyes don't compare to Delilah's beautiful brown eyes.Soulful and deep,Always filled with mystery.They almost resemble the warmth of the sun,The rich dark soils of earth filled with life.Irresistible like a bear drawn with honey.All our dates were common,Arcade,movie nights,walks in the park,Fort sleepovers,Ice cream dates,baking and cooking dinner dates. I've always tried to get over Delilah but I can't do that when everything we do is a do over.It was a restart. During everything....I always get a diabolical sense of Deja Vu.

Wednesday,February 2nd 2021

Delilah...

I hope he liked my note,The book was absolutely amazing.I found an audio book last night and finished it.I fell in love it was amazing. I've always dreamed of a relationship like Achilles and Patroclus,Except well the part when they meet they're destined fate.They knew each other so well.She was able to recognize him no matter what,By touch,smell,Even if she was to be blind. They were connected by a different level of love and it always intrigued me.

I used to have someone like that in my high school,His name was also Karl. we both went our separate ways for college.I had feelings but didn't think that they were mutual.We had most classes together,we were best friends.I changed so much over those 2 years.Looking back in someone else's perspective I wouldn't be able to tell me apart from a crowd.

He almost reminded me of the Karl I just met,he was always so charismatic and the giggliest person on the planet.I wish I had gotten a way to reach him after high school but by the time I had my chance to ask him he left for college.I was a little affected but I eventually got over it.Actually he kind of looked similar to him as well they both had brown fluffy hair and facial structure.It didn't take much to connect the dots.It's him,THE Karl Jacobs. The boy I once fell in love with some years ago.

Everything was making much more sense.When we talked in that brief moment it felt like I'd known him for years.

All thought my classes all I could think about was Karl and how every single dot connected to make out the bigger picture.I was always one to think about destiny and fate.A large irritating bell I always despised dispersed my thoughts elsewhere setting me back into the tragic events that's reality.

I walked out of class and behind me I heard Toby talking to Matt he eventually told him to talk to him later and he walked up to me.

"Hey you alright? I tried getting your attention in seminar but you looked down"He put a hand on my shoulder which was comforting but my attention still mostly being on Karl.

"No yeah I was just thinking about stuff"

"About?"

"Well you remember when I told you about Karl in my high school?" I told Toby all about my high school life.Usually over bonding and so he could get to know me more.

"Oh yeah what about him?" He took his hand off my shoulder and wrapped both his arms around his books.

"I think I found him again" I was looking at the ground but determined and assertive that I was reunited with the man was once my best friend and my crush.