Life with Arizona Robbins

Thinking

Leah: You make a big mistake Arizona. I will get you and you will find out that y/n is not enough for you.
Y/n: Arizona?
Arizona: I honestly don't know what to say.
Y/n: It would help if you say something like I'm all you need and even more.
Arizona: I'm so sorry y/n. It is a bit overwhelming. Are you okay? She just stabbed you.
Y/n: I'm fine, don't worry.
Miranda: Murphy you come with me.
Leah: Arizona, I love you.
Arizona: I love y/n.
Meredith: This is just crazy. People say you need to fight for love, but the world makes it very hard for you y/n.
Y/n: Only because I'm with the most adorable and beautiful girl in the world. It's like everyone wants to be with her.

Arizona grabs your arm and pulls you in for a long kiss.

Arizona: But it should't be this hard. I only want to have good times with you.
Y/n: Listen there will be no good times without bad times. It makes us stronger I think.
Meredith: You are right, but you deserve some more good times the coming months. There has to be some more joy for you both. You guys are just so perfect.
April: She is right. This is not normal at all. Go home early and just be with eachother. Have some dinner, watch a movie and come back tomorrow for a new day.
Arizona: Yes that will help us I guess.

At home Arizona starts to make some dinner. You take a shower and are not saying much the whole time. After eating you sit on the couch together.

Arizona: Is something wrong? You are so quiet?
Y/n: Oh it's nothing, just tired. I think I go to bed early.
Arizona: Hey talk to me. I know there's something bothering you. Don't shut me out.
Y/n: I said I'm fine, I go to bed.
Arizona: Did I do something? Is it what happened?
Y/n: Stop it Arizona. Just shut up!
Arizona: Y/n...
Y/n: I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to shout at you. Please believe me, I'm so sorry.

You start to cry and Arizona comes to you and holds you. She looks in your eyes and sees you are not fine.

Arizona: I get you don't want to talk, but you are always there for me to listen and to make me feel loved. Please let me take care of you now.
Y/n: Okay, I will tell you what's going on, but you have to promise me to not be mad at me.
Arizona: What is it? Do I need to be scared? Tell me y/n. Have I done something to upset you?
Y/n: You have done nothing wrong. It's me okay. I don't think I can do this any more.
Arizona: Are you saying that you don't want to be with me anymore?
Y/n: I don't know, maybe.
Arizona: What is this? It's not funny.
Y/n: I'm not being funny.
Arizona: So, are you breaking up with me? Where is this coming from?
Y/n: It's all me Arizona. I think we jumped in all of this to fast. Maybe we should take a break from eachother.
Arizona: I don't understand.
Y/n: You can stay in the house. I will find somewhere else to stay. I will get my stuff, I'm so sorry.
Arizona: No, no. You aren't doing this. We love eachother and we are engaged. Don't walk away. I need an explanation.
Y/n: It's all because I love you Arizona. Today with Leah it came all together. I love you so much that it hurts. I'm hurt, maybe even broken because of our love.
*Tears start streaming down your face*

Arizona: But you do love me?
Y/n: Yes I love you more than I even love myself. It hurts to love you.
Arizona: Why does it hurt? Please try to tell me.
Y/n: It's all since it happened with Callie. I'm constantly worried. Worried you get hurt, worried I need to save you and worried someone else will take you and you will love her more than me. It's all I do, I'm so worried about you. About us.
Arizona: I think I love you more than ever y/n. Please listen carefully. You can be worried, but maybe you need to let it go a bit. The way you care about me and about others is your strength, don't forget that.
Y/n: I don't know, it becomes my weakness these days. All because I'm hurt. It's almost that I'm scared to love you, or scared to lose you.
*You break down and Arizona holds you closer than ever*