The Adventures Of John B : The Sacred Stone

Chapter 46 - The Blink Of An Eye.

No one. 

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 Vivian Vacarelli is not a girl of sorrow, but she has experienced many sorrowful tragedies in her life. Maybe it was this that turned the eyes that had once been so vivacious into a dull, vacant stare. 

  All I can see are those eyes. Those eyes without a face.

 Her plates could kill, watch out. 

 Just because someone can hear you doesn't mean they're listening. That's something he learned a while ago. 

the world had gone mute again. everything soundless. all i had to hear was the nuisance of my own thoughts echoing on the air. times like these made me long to hear again. to hear the beautiful noises outside my window, or to feel the tears that trickled down my face. 

They were markings on my body; the type of trophies that she didn't want them to see. 

 Was I really sorry though? I've trapped all of my emotions in a bottle I will never open. So, it isn't possible for me to be sorry. Or somber. Or afraid. 

 Time is what willed me to get up, and time is what will eventually end me. 

 And I would speak up, only to find that my voice is irrelevant. 

  And yet, it didn't really matter. The silence is deafening and the noise is too quiet. The pain is painless, but the act of simply living leaves me immeasurably hurt. Everything is switched. Everything is wrong. I could feel so much, and yet I could feel so little. It's funny how one day, we could be living on cloud nine, and the next, we can't seem to stop crying.

  Curiosity killed the cat. And I'm getting a bit too curious. 

 it's amazing how fast things can change, isn't it? 

 "You think bigger." 

 It was as if she were trapped in glass- a figment made to be seen, but not to be touched. 

 "Oh god.. something bad is gonna happen. You need to leave! Tell them all to leave!"

I could hear her. In the rain, I could hear her. In the skies, I could see her. In the wind, I could feel her. She was everywhere, and she was nowhere. It was as if she turned to the land, inhabiting the trees and the animals. Lead astray from the body she had once worn. 

"You don't deserve to love either, just like me."

Following him to the light. Trusting him through the peril of the night.

I knew I loved you. I knew I was yours. I gave you my heart. Were you ever mine? 

"Truth is, I don't want to hurt you." 

When I was small, I felt so big. And now that I am big. What do I see? I realize how small I am in a miserably rotten world. 

 "Someday, everything will be alright."   But not today.

But for me- it was realization. That I was no different from those men back there. The colors of my eyes have vanished, the chilling blue turned to the faintest of grays. There is no false security in a world where hate rules. And if I have to take advantage of that, I will. 

i smiled, basking in the light of the ferocious sun. 

I don't know when I started loving you. But there's never once been a time that I've wanted to stop.