Romancing Dominance [BL][COMPLETED]

chapter 9 | romancing dominance

Sleeping is the only escape from my turmoiled world. Sleep is the only time I can close my eyes, feel safe, and really enjoy the definition of peace.

Sleeping is the only moment I don't need to frustrate myself with the entire residue I need to finish.

I don't need to fix myself and keep lying.

I remember Dad mentioned peace in his dreams when I came running to his arms because of nightmares.

I was so scared at that time.

My young mind was not able to process the reality that even in my dreams, I was haunted by people who wish nothing but harm to me. But Dad was there, he comforted me with his embrace.

Now, I'm all alone in a place so unfamiliar. People I am a stranger to. The people who don't know me and my real intentions.

"Ah, bakla! Salot sa lipunan! You can't go to heaven! Isa kang salot! You're a son of the devil! We don't want to be friends with someone like you!" Ignorance made people hate me, but knowledge made them hate me more.

I came out clean, but my intentions are dirtier than the dirt on the sole of my shoe.

It was my decision to come to Maraya.

Napilitan ba ako? Oo, noong una, but these days, something changed.

Slowly, binabago ang mga pananaw ko dahil sa taong 'yun.

Jakob.

I was challenged.

Ni-kailanman ay hindi ako hinindi-an ng mga kalalakihan na nagustuhan ko, not that I approached them first.

Siya lang. Only Jakob.

And I want him.

I want to be someone close and significant to Jakob's life and decisions.

"How is he, doc?"

I can hear them but my mind was devoid of anything, instead, it shouts for me to keep my eyes shut and continue sleeping.

My eyes are sore, my throat, and even my body still felt like something was crawling.

"Gumagana na ang mga gamot sa allergies niya, Mr. Buenavista. Masiyado lang talagang nabigla ang katawan niya nang kumain siya ng bagoong. I assume na walang nakakaalam na may allergy siya sa ganitong pagkain."

I am not interested with what Jakob and the doctor is talking. Alam ko na 'yan. The doctor already warned me after nung magkamalay ako.

"I was aware of his allergies. I read it in the personal information his dad sent to me. Hindi ko lang nabantayan ng maayos. It was my fault."

It wasn't his fault. I don't understand why he's blaming himself. He should be happy I almost die. Mawawalan na sana siya ng sakit sa ulo.

"It was no one's fault, Mr. Buenavista. Your fiancé is safe because of your immediate attendance. Sa ngayon ay hihintayin natin ang tuluyan niyang paggaling."

Matagal-tagal din ang pag-uusapan nila ng doktor bago ito umalis.

I remained asleep but conscious of my surrounding especially when I heard Jakob's heavy footsteps nearing my bed.

Sa totoo lang, natatakot ako. I am defenseless and the only person I can call is Glends.

Nasaktan ako ni Jakob noon, and I don't see any reason for him to not do it when I am this defenseless. I know, I overtly think things and this is the reflection of the trauma Jakob gave me the first encounter I had with him.