Untold Feelings | chaesoo

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(A.N: Some might be not accurate since I based this by my own experience and life, nevertheless enjoy!)

(and yes, even the birthdays were not accurate, this will be just Jisoo's POV cause she's my bias kekeke)

Life has always been cruel for me, ever since I started on understanding everything about this world—I never got anything nor something interesting. I am always the girl who's everyone's dream, the girl who's always achiever and top of the class and the girl that they're always looking up as their role model.

I used to love joining beauty pageants too and I am always getting the title.

I can tell you that I'm multi talented, I can play guitar, draw, sing, dance, write in a poetic way, compose, and the others might remain unfounded. Maybe a lil bit of being a gamer too.

I never imagined myself falling inlove to someone, that someone that I don't even know existed same as her who's clueless about my existence.

I am always the funniest and bubbly one, I cared a lot about my family, friends, pets and most importantly, anyone who's made by God. I am the girl who's always cheering up my friends whenever they feel so down, and I am that someone who's easy to get on.

When I'm having a hard time, my mouth remained closed and silent. I never shared my thoughts and ideas, maybe just some and those are about academic related. Not really special nor doing something related about everyone's daily livings.

I finished pre-school and elementary, continuesly running in highschool with my name on top, with a title of 'best student'. Best in Science, Math, English, and so on. Most Humble, Most respectful, Most responsible and so on. Those are the titles that I used to have on, something on my shoulders keeping me on top—and it's my personality.

I moved up as top 1 in my high school days and now, I'm currently a grade 10 student.

I started the year with no one on my back, just me, myself and I. Literally zero and all down.

June 2019,

Our class adviser came and my thoughts were cut off when she told us to introduce ourselves, me being a brave student wasn't nervous at all and just keeps my chin straight. I never found someone interesting in our room which is I mean my classmates, they're all not my type cause sometimes, I'm a bit picky and introvert.

My turn was up and it's my time to show up at the front. I started with a smile, then followed by my life beings...

"Hello everyone, I'm Kim Jisoo. Fifteen years old. My hobbies are playing guitar, drawing and more. Nice to meet you all and I hope we can get along soon" I went back to my seat with my classmates eyes glued on me.

This is all new to me, I'm a transferred student and mainly a stranger to anyone here. I don't know what place I took and it all came out that I'm here infront of our school canteen during our break time. All alone.

I ordered something I like and enough for me, I'm not a foody. I only ordered one burger and no drinks, I have my own water from my mom.

I was eating all alone when someone approached me, I scanned her face really hard and I remembered. She's my classmate. I moved a bit so she can sit comfortably, she has her friends around her but why does she's here. Is she trying to show in my face that I have no one?

I felt so uncomfortable and awkward because I've been here for about 5 minutes just listening and eating my food, while them? They're laughing and eating so happy. Am I a weirdo? I asked myself, I really thought I'm not since a lot of boys had been crushing on me ever since before.