𝗛𝗘𝗔𝗧𝗛𝗘𝗥 ━━ 𝖻𝗋𝗒𝖼𝖾 𝗁𝖺𝗅𝗅

𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗼𝗻

in the summer of last year i had a vision that i knew needed to be carried out and published for the world to see. while i may not be the best or most well known writer here on wattpad, and i no longer am interested in the sway boys and much affiliated with them—this book means the absolute world to me for reasons i will soon explain.

a little over a year ago i was struggling with depression. i couldn't get out of bed and i genuinely had not a single thing to live for. i thought my world was ending and i was under the impression that i didn't deserve my place on the planet.

i have watched my brother struggle with a drug addiction all my life, and recently a xanax addiction. in this book i wanted to express how xanax can truly affect a person. they can destroy you.

in early 2020 i attempted to take my life. i was found and put into therapy and counseling for a few months. not a lot of people from my real life know about this because i tried to keep it private and only slip in a few details about why i started therapy.

i struggled through it and then all of a sudden a close family friend of mine killed themselves in a home i grew up in, played in, and laughed in. as i witnessed the affects his death had on my family members and the people close to him, i felt so fucking glad that i was found and saved.

i saw how they felt when they couldn't fucking save him. but at least they were able to save me. i wrote this book because as shitty and horribly written it is—i know that if i could have. at least a tiny impact on peoples lives then i'll take it.

please fucking stay. you're loved. i love you. my pms are always open if you're struggling and need to talk to me about absolutely anything. suicide isn't the answer. you deserve your place on this planet. make the most out of your life. live the way you want to live. make mistakes. make memories.

i recently started reading the comments left on this book and i quickly realized that i wasn't alone in how i felt. i had a comfort in that. i carry this book deep in my heart even though i no longer watch bryce hall anymore.

i understand how it feels. this is why i made this book. too many kids feel like outsiders to their own lives. you aren't alone in how you feel. you aren't fucking weird for having emotions.

you're amazing. you're not alone.

please just fucking stay.