LOS TIEMPOS PERDIDOS (THE LOST TIMES)

EPILOGUE 2: ADIOS, MI AMOR

Dear Nobody,

To address you as no one would be considerable as an insult to my side, you're more than that. Things, years and time passed by, I grew old and managed to see my younger brother to have have such a wonderful wife that I wished to have in the form of you, I'm still confused yet I didn't have much time to continue on living in this world of fantasy, a world where I drew you and I in a dreamland that I, myself didn't know that I manage to make. 

In an adventure of a lifetime, from the first chapter to last, I don't think that I should be the one to blame of your death. Our death. The problem of our story was, we never give it a shot, even for the one last time, the taste of your lips, the lustful one, from fleshes and  bloods, to do way how you always made me feel enchanted by the way you look at me with your monolid eyes, Lorraine, Seulgi or to whoever person that you really you've always got me intoxicated under the moonlight with your touch.

But why? I asked you to see me in another life, too dumb I wait but what happened? I've got myself gone crazy. That's what they believe and I'm almost there to think so.

Sometimes, I wished in the middle of the night, though I knew it to myself that I'm just being too hopeless romantic to think about there were two of you, two versions of us but none of those had never gotten to be mine, you are the world but I'm just nothing but a huge meteorite that was dared to destroy the hell out of you. As I opened my eyes  there were a lot of things that had crossed my mind, I don't know what to say, I don't know what to think, everything inside me was all broken, all I knew, if you really are just my dream, you are something that I am afraid to let go of. The fire that had started burning right behind me yet as I kept on standing there, looking at you, living at the fact that you're here with me, bandaids don't heal wounds but you're that type of hurt that I would gladly kept in my whole existence as a wonderful piece of art that I always wanted in my life that would never happen. As I stand there, as the same time I thought to be marrying Mateo, I felt the fire slowly eating the hell out of me, awakening my senses that this wasn't  a reality.

But a dream that I needed to let go.

I'm just a normal woman who dreamed to be loved and be wanted by someone so wonderful like you but I'm too old already to continue on the adventure of thinking that I breathe and exist only for you.

Lorraine, Seulgi, I love you, but I'm getting tired of this dreams anymore, I have to rest now...

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"I'm sorry for your lost." It was December when everyone lost such a wonderful woman named Bae Joohyun, in such an age, the woman remained to withstand to her existence and to keep on looking for her unknown lover which her family believed to be curse to hunt their family member just like that. No description, no photos, no main identity, she was completely nothing but a stranger to them or, much more to be like a ghost to them.

All of the family members knew that the woman on her young age had never got to be friended with a woman named Lorraine nor Seulgi, her appearance on the woman's life remained unknown and suspicious, they thought it was just nothing at first but the persistent words of Joohyun had kept on bugging them. 

His brother nodded his head and bowed down to the woman who kneeled and offered her prayers to Joohyun with her arranged basket of flowers sitting just in front of her. The man waited for her to finish as they were the only ones left there alone when suddenly the woman spoke.

"Joohyun did wait for me, didn't she?" She asked with her head still bowed down while looking at the woman's picture who was sitting next to her ern. His brother stood frozen to her words, as he waited for the woman to look at him the gut feeling and the coldness of the atmosphere had dropped around his body when the woman turned around, his eyes meeting those monolid that her sister always repeated to describe as the woman on her dreams. She chuckled and turned her back when she suddenly said,

"Adios, mi amor."