Worse Than Death. d.m

A series of events

( Alexander Lestrange)

After everyone had left, I got a drink. The full moon was in like 2 weeks. I was dreading it so bloody much. As I drank Draco's stolen Fire-Whiskey and thought about my shit life, I heard the door slam from down the hall. I had seen Isebella go into the kitchen a few minutes ago. Her father had come over and was talking to aunty Cissa and Theo. I had no sweet clue what Arabella was going on about, but I knew that if it had anything to do with Isebella's mother, it wasn't anything good. I heard the shower turn on. I hoped that Isebella was okay. She looked rough. She looked like she did in like 5th year when Cam took her to the cottage, after what the doctors called it, " full blown psychotic break." I laughed to myself thinking about it. The poor girl deserves to have a fucking breakdown. After all of the bullshit she has gone through with her mother. And I only knew half of it. My head snapped up when I heard someone running down the stairs. Draco looked like shit. More so than normal. I was gonna say something, but he looked like he was on a mission of sorts. So I sunk further into the couch, sipping my whiskey. When Theo came in and sat down beside me. " Wanna drink?" I asked, pouring a glass. " fucking yes please." I laughed, and handed him the drink. I wondered to myself for a moment. Does Theo swing both ways?

( Isebella Nott)

After sitting on the bathroom floor with Draco, I had fallen back asleep. He was warm. I felt safe being in his arms. But I was gonna ruin him. " you alright love?" I looked up to see Draco. His eyes were like the stars. " mmh. I'm fine, Dray." I went to stand up. I needed out of these clothes. " Here, Let me help you up." Thanking him, I grabbed his arm as he pulled me to my feet. I turned the water off. " I need to change." I mumbled into Draco's chest as he pulled me into a hug. " I know darling. Let's go." I opened the door and we walked out. Holy fuck. I froze, bumping into Draco who was behind me. " What's ha-" "Shut the fuck up!" I whisper yelled to him. Pointing to the sitting room. Theodore and Alexander were snogging on the couch. " Holy shi-" " Draco stop! Turn around now! Go now." I rushed him to go the other way. " Okay okay!" We started to run down the hallway. Once we were out of ear shot, we both stopped and looked at each other. " Holy shit!" We both burst out laughing. " Oh my god! Oh my god. My brother is snogging your cousin!?" We both had tears from laughing so hard. " If they get married, would we be related? Oh god ew." I wondered out loud. He laughed at me and then answered. " No. Bellatrix was removed from the family tree and Alex isn't 100% pure blooded because he's a werewolf. So it's fine." I looked up at him, meeting his eyes with mine. " You knew the answer to that far too quickly... Did you know!? Draco Lucius Malfoy! Did you know my brother was snogging your cousin!?" I smacked his chest playfully. " No, No! I honestly thought that Cameron would try to get with Theodore, this whole thing is a shock for me as well. And I just thought about the werewolf thing anyway." I laughed at his answer. " Let's go upstairs." Draco nodded, and we went up towards the stairs. Everything left normal. Like before.

I needed to change out of my now damp clothes. I felt a little better than before. I felt alive again, which was good I guess. Me and Draco made it to my room. I went to my wardrobe and picked out some clothes to wear. " We have to talk about it, Ise." My hands trembled, I kept quiet, choosing to ignore his comment. Of course I knew we would have to bloody talk about it. I took the clothes and walked into the bathroom. I looked like a mess. " Ise. you can't shut me out again." I hummed in response, starting to get changed. I knew he was looking because his breath hitched and he didn't say a word. I laughed to myself as I finished getting dressed. " I'm a mess and I look it too. I know Draco. There's no point in denying my love." I shook my hand, walking past him. " Why do you do that to yourself. You are killing yours-" " I already died my love. It's not that bad. It's quiet. And quite cold actually." I grabbed the glass of stale water from my nightstand from before I left and downed it. I grimaced at the taste, but swallowed anyway. " Can you not bloody talk like that!?" Draco turned back to face me. " I'm not fucking fighting with you right now. I'm tired. I'm going to sleep." I crawled into the bed and went under the covers. My bloody head hurt. " Draco?" I whispered, knowing he was still in the room. " My head hurts." I whispered, waiting for a reply. " That would be because you don't have anything in your system other than old water." I heard his footsteps walking towards the door. " I'll go get some food and water. Sleep until I get back. Don't leave. Please." Then the door clicked shut, and his footsteps resided down the hall. I jolted out of the bed and ran towards the bathroom. I immediately hurled into the sink. Nothing came up besides the small bit of water I had downed before. I opened the cabinet for the pills I had left there. They were gone, all that was left was a piece of parchment. I groaned and opened it, sliding onto the floor. " You are a bloody idiot. Ask for help when you need it darling. Trust us. I Love you - Pansy."

I kicked the cabinet door shut in anger, hurting my foot in the process. " Fuck! Fucking Pansy! Fuck this." I yelled as I got up from the floor. " fucking fuck. Fuck me. Fuck this. I can't fucking ta-" The door bursts open. Alex was rushed into the room, wand in hand. " Get out. I'm fine." He scoffed at my answer. " you were just fucking yelling blue fucking murder Isebella. I don't really think you're as fine as you say." I laughed. " I need to get something. Please move Alex." I went to move past him, but he blocked my path. " Alex. move." I tried again. " No." I scoffed. " What the fuck is going on in-" Pansy. " you. Give them back." Pansy looked confused. " I don't know wh-" " You bloody know what! You took what was mine. And I would simply like them back. Now preferably." Alex looked like he was about to hex me across the room. Pansy didn't say a word. " Pans don't. Don't fucking do it. You'll help her ruin herself even more than she already is." I scoffed once more, pansy took a step out of the room. " NO! No, it's mine. I want it. Alex I can't do this. I need. . . you need to. . . Pansy please! Please, I'm begging you. Just one. I can't. . . I can't breathe. . ." I was panicked. Alex looked scared, not knowing what to do. Pansy took a step towards me. " Get Arabella. Pansy go get her now!" Alex said frantically through my sobs. Pansy ran out of the room. Alex went to grab me. I backed up, not letting him come closer. " No. Don't touch me! No, you'll take me to them. They'll get me. They want me back. They can't know. They can't know Alex. Alex they can't... I can't do this anymore... It's too hard. . . I hate hiding. They'll get me. They'll take me. . . They want to kill me again. . ." I was spinning. I was going down the hole. I collapsed onto the floor. My throat hurts from crying. I heard Alex yell out for Draco just as Arabella came into the room. My eyes met hers, then everything went calm and quiet. But not cold. I missed the cold.