13 | Chapter Thirteen
March, 2015 | Harlem, New York
"Isis, I'm sorry."
That had managed to be the most annoying thing that came out of Joey's mouth in all the time that I've known him. That was the only phrase he's been saying for the past day. I didn't want to hear it. I didn't want to hear anything from his mouth actually. I just wanted to go to sleep for a really long time. I just wanted to get away.
I turned away from Joey: he was actually on his knees on one side of my bed. I had managed to block his voice with two pillows, but then Joey removed those and I was forced to actually listen to him. He could say he was sorry until his lungs burst and I still would not care. Okay, perhaps that was a little bit harsh, but in a way, it was true. Joey sighed loudly besides me before boldly hopping onto my bed and laying in the empty spot besides me. I shook my head, laughing. "You really can't be serious." I stated hopping up from the bed. He really did not think he was going to sweet talk his way into my heart again. He really didn't understand the meaning of his words. He really didn't understand what he said.
"Isis, I'm begging you, please forgive me." Joey stated again.
"No, because this is all your fault, Joey. You called me a bitch, could you be any more disrespectful?" I questioned. Joey sighed. "I really could. I could be hella disrespectful, but I stopped myself. And I'm sorry for calling you a bitch." He stated. I rose an eyebrow. "That's not helping, JoVaugn." I stated in a calm voice in an attempt to not have a repeat of the screaming match we had yesterday. "Isis, I said I'm sorry on my part. Can I have my apology as well?" He asked. I rolled my eyes. "For what Joey? Accidentally calling you Reid? People make mistakes everyday." I stated walking out of the room. I wanted this conversation to end immediately but Joey kept popping up with responses.
"And they apologize for it!" Joey added as he followed me out the room.
I turned and faced him.
"Well I'm not sorry! And I apologized before and you never accepted it! I'm not apologizing anymore!" I yelled at him. Joey pursed his lips, looking me up and down. "Okay, I respect that, but let me ask you one question." Joey stated. I shrugged. "Go ahead." I asked. Joey leaned his frame against the wall.
"Did you ever love me? Did you ever seriously want to start something special with me? Cause I one hundred percent wanted you to be more than my roommate. I know we both never really liked labels, but I wanted you to be mine. Officially." Joey stated. I shook my head. He waited this long to tell me? Was two weeks ago too early? Was he just looking for an excuse for me to be back in his arms like shit didn't happen?
"I did Joey. I honestly did." I answered turning away.
"I'm not done Isis." Joey's words were stern, and his grip on my hand was just as firm.
"If you really loved me, why was Reid so important? Why is he stuck in your mind? Am I not good enough?" Joey's questions went on and on, and I was growing impatient. I let out an aggravated groan. "Joey I loved you, okay? But sometimes when you love someone, or something you just have to let them be. Maybe that's us." I stated. Joey paused. His eyes were slits as if he was examining me closely. "So what? That's it? We're over?" He questioned.
"There was nothing for us to end in the first place. We didn't have any labels." I answered.
Joey let go of my hand abruptly.
"Fuck Reid, and fuck you too. You can get your shit and bounce. I'm serious this time. Don't come back. I'm done." Joey stated. He turned around, slamming the door to his room shut. I closed my eyes, taking a deep breath. I wanted to call out: And go where? You were my source of shelter. But instead, I did what he told me to. I didn't pack everything, just the things that I needed. I sent a quick text to Leah asking her if she could please pick me up and let me crash at her place until Joey cooled down. I didn't know how long that would be. My name was written on the lease, I made sure of that the moment Joey asked me to move in with him. But then again, I didn't pay at all. He could honestly get the 'okay' to kick me out.
