Never Meant To Be

Chapter 4

John held my hand as we walked towards class, Willow often cooed at us when we did it. John really was only holding my hand so no one would notice my hand constantly shaking.  I was wearing red Satanist rings, it was my attempt at showing I was a true Daemon, half-human or not. Daemons were the children of Demons, I was a vampire. My father was a duke of hell but my mother was a runway model. "Are you OK?" John asked softly. John, for all of his good qualities, would never understand. He came from a prestigious family, a baron of Hell and the daughter of a prince of Hell.

My friend smiled at me. "Fine." I lied through my teeth. John lead me away from the stream of students and took me into an abandoned classroom. "Ebony, what is going on?" I shook my head. "You would never understand," I said quietly looking at my feet, watching as my wrists and their white scars. "Of course I would." He replied softly and walked over and took my hands in his. "John we just aren't the same," I muttered as I caressed his hand gently, he took my face in his hands. "I want to Ebony... I love you." He told me. I stumbled a little before regaining my composer. "Of course you do you're my best friend."  He shook his head and my heart fell to the pit of my stomach. "No Ebby I'm in love with you." I pushed myself away from him. Tears flowing down my cheeks. "No you don't please tell me this is a mistake I can't lose you, Johnny, Willow loves you! Y-you should be happy I would kill for her to love me the way she loves you, John. Just ask her out fall in love with her. Your life will be easier."

 With that, I slammed the classroom door and ran to the forbidden forest and lay on the green carpet. Maybe something evil and dangerous would come and kill me. I dug my knife out of my pocket and held it just above my wrist. My breathing was laboured and my head ached along with my legs. I had run really deep into the forest.

John loves me

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I cried and sobbed, I couldn't breathe my head was trapping me my heart broke I heard screams, it didn't register that they were my own. I hit my hand against a tree root until it was bloody. My friend was in love with me.

I didn't love him. I hated him for having the ability to have who I wanted. I screamed. My knife fell out of my hand and stuck in my leg. It only added to the pain. I must have passed out from blood loss.

A/N that was intense... Opinions anyone?? Should I just take the My Immortal thing away since the story is so different idk. -Lucinda