Am I Ready Yet? - Karlnapity

Chapter 14

Hiya- I'm so so sorry I literally haven't posted in over a month and I know that's like really shit and you guys yelled at me a lot and now I'm finally back on it so I hope you enjoy this chapter lovelys. Also as always 'these' are thinking 👍
TW'S as always will be in bold at the start and end of the paragraph/part and have 🛑 these symbols.
TW'S:
Intrusive thoughts

'I'll tell them.'

He was about to tell them everything let all his secrets out. Things he'd told George and things he thought he'd only ever be able to tell George.

'Not Schlatt! Not yet.'

Well almost everything.

Quackity took a deep breath and sat up removing his head from Sapnap's chest and wiping the remaining tears away.

"I'll.... I'll tell you, and you might think differently of me after this and I'm willing to except that.."

"Oh Q we would never think differently of you we'll be there for you I- no we promise" Sapnap said taking the shaking man's hand and getting a nod in agreement from Karl.

Quackity let out one final sob before the thoughts started to rush into his head.

🛑TW: Intrusive thoughts🛑
'Their gonna think your a bad parent'

'You're young their gonna judge you too'

'They'll think your weak and helpless most people could look after a kid'
🛑TW: Finish🛑

Even though the thoughts kept coming he'd made up his mind he was telling them and nothing would stop him now! One final deep breath and he began:

[Yo! Mini vibe! Sooooo DONT STOP ME NOWWWWW IM HAVING SUCH A GOOD TIME IM HAVING A BALLL DONT STOP ME NOW IF YOU WANNA HAVE A GOOD TIME JUST GIVE ME A CALLLLLLLL....Ahem anyways]

"So you guys have um clearly noticed I've been in a really shit place this past couple days and yes there was a certain trigger that caused it. And that was um..." He just needed a minute before he got into things properly.

Sapnap was the one making sure he was comfortable this time as well as listening, whilst Karl was giving his complete attention and listening carefully.

Sapnap lightly squeezed the smaller man's hand to let him know he was there.

Quackity continued.

"It was because uh I was on a uh a call with my friend Wilbur and his brother Tommy was just in the background yelling random shit and pissing him of ya know" a small sigh like laugh escaped Quackity's mouth.

"And uh then someone else walked in and started talking to Tommy and. And that person is called Tubbo and he's uh my..my son." At this point a tear welled up in Quackity's eye and rolled down his cheek.

Sapnap looked up at Karl and Karl met Sapnap's eyes. They both looked concerned and some what confused.

The tears kept falling down the Mexicans face at a quicker pace now.

"Q I-"

"I couldn't just leave him so I took him with me to England and left him with some friends to stay for a while and that has now definitely become a lot longer and he probably hates me now and I can't take the guilt anymore but I couldn't look after him it wouldn't be fair on him and he'd be unhappy staying with me he needs someone stable with h I can't give h what he need and his need are the most important thing to me and I can't I, I just I don't what the fuck..." He was talking so so fast it was hard to keep up but the other men managed.

The salty tears kept coming and wouldn't stop he was just sobbing now he brung his hands up to his face and cried into them.

Q was so embarrassed. Beyond embarrassed. It was like everything had just crashed down right in front of him.

🛑TW: Intrusive thoughts🛑
'They hate you now you know that they think your weird and horrible'
🛑TW: Finish🛑

Quackity was now uncontrollably crying choking on his own tears.

He didn't feel the arm snake around his trembling shoulder, the hand grip his tightly, nore did he feel the beanie being taken off his soft hair, not the comforting fingers running through his locks.

"Shhh shhh I got you, I got you. You're- you're gonna be okay" Sapnap's words trembled in the air just wanting the man to be okay.

"It's all going to be okay, promise really I do" Karl said brushing through his hair.

It took Quackity around an hour to calm down properly. He was exhausted now from all the crying and ranting but it felt good to get it all out he was still terrified for the others responses though.

At the moment they were all curled up in the corner of the bed Quackity in the middle leaning into Sapnap and Quackity's hands had at some point made their way into the sleeves of Sap's hoodie. Karl was leaning of Quackity in a hugely comforting way. He was tracing circles on his back and twisting the ends of Quackity's mullet around his finger.

But all good peaceful things must eventually come to an end and Karl was the one to end it.

"How old is tubbo?" Karl still tracing circles onto Quackity's back. Karl felt it all tense up. So he stopped tracing and started rubbing circles instead

"He's uh.. he's ten now..he's getting big. Growing up" Quackity looked sad but also found at the thought of his son he clearly cared about him.

"Ah I see and is he uh biologically yours or?" Karl was being so nice about this but he was calculating and if tubbo was Quackity's biological son Quackity would have only been 15 when tubbo was born.

[HELLO THIS IS A LITTLE BIT OF HELP SO THESE ARE ALL THE AGES OF EVERYONE IN THIS BOOK: Tubbo:10 Tommy:9 Wilbur:19 Technoblade:19 Philza:42 Quackity:25 Sapnap:25 Karl:27 Schlatt:27 Dream:26 George:27
Also before anyone says about Phil "23 iS rEaLlY yOuNg To HaVe A kId" yes I know but that was the age my mum had me and I didn't want to make Phil to old as well]

"No he's not he's uh my ex husband's we got together when I was 14 and he was 16 and he uh well cheated a year later. He had to take care of the kid because the lady didn't want him so I looked after him mostly.." Quackity looked down at his lap waiting for a response.

"I'm so sorry that's happened to you." Sapnap lightly squeezed his wrists as they were inside his own sleeves and gave Quackity a small smile.

"You did really well to look after a baby at 15 Quackity that's insane. I wouldn't have been brave enough" Karl said hugging him from behind.

Quackity was so happy that they didn't hate him not only that they were fine with it but they supported him too!

Small tears escaped his eyes.

Not like the others.

Sapnap knew it.

Karl knew it.

Quackity knew it.

Not sad tears.

Tears of joy.

YOOOOOOOOO HELLO BEEN A WHILE. This chapter was very uhhh idk if it was sad or angsty or something else or a mix of both but hey! Tell me how you liked the chapter! And what do you think will happen next? Also how was your day lovelys I love hearing about your days I've really missed you guys.

Time taken: 1 hour 13 minutes

Word count: 1278