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1 6 scared to love

"I thought we could spend our day out together Em" he charmingly smiles.

"Really" I amusingly whisper at him, he steps closer to me and whispers in my ear "I would join me if I were you, believe it or not but I can actually be fun"

His whisper gave me chills as all my muscles clench when he comes close to me, I stare at the charming man in front of me before being interrupted by Maria.

"Your total is 127 euros, and here is your bag" I quickly hand her the money and pay for the clothes before thanking the woman and rising out the small door.

Ethan follows behind me.

"We should probably eat, I know an cafe not to far from here where we can-"

"Ethan I wanted to do today alone, I have nothing's against you at all I just miss France and want to spend today as a self care day" I interrupt him.

"Don't leave, I understand that you miss home but maybe I could keep you mind off of it", he says softly trying to ease me. I wanted to be near him but I am worried that our friendship will turn in to something more and I don't want to be broken again. I'm too scared to love him.

"Tanks Ethan, actually I will hang out with you but you better be good at keeping people's minds off things." I whisper, he quickly nods as we begin to walk.

We walk for about ten minutes before arriving at a small café with an outdoor patio, of course I kept my distance far from Ethan. He kept checking behind him to make sure that I was still with him.

I seat myself across from him out on the patio, awkwardly avoiding eye contact with each other. A young girl who probably has this café as her summer job walks up to us, taking her notepad out of her apron.

"Hello" she smiles "what could I get you today?"

"I'll just have a lemonade" I smile back, knowing quite well that a lemonade was not really a café drink but I don't feel like anything hot here in Italy in the summertime.

"Right..." she writes that down and then turns to Ethan "and for you sir?"

"Nothing today thanks" he mumbles keeping his stare on me, taking a cigarette out from behind his ear and placing it perfectly between his lips he lights it.

"Why did you want to spend the day with me Ethan." I get straight to the point. I wanted to have a nice peaceful day to myself.

I guess I can't to that, on the other hand it was sweet how he wanted to spend time with me.

"Well why did you come with me?" He answers the question with another question, I roll my eyes and answer him "because I didn't want to make you upset by saying no" I admit.

He hums to himself.

One the lady brings back my lemonade Ethan quickly fishes money out of his pocket and places it on the table. He didn't let me have a chance to rest before standing up and urging me to follow him with me lemonade.

"Where are we going" I ask, trying to keep up with his long legs as he quickly crosses the road.

"Parking garage." He states, rounding the corner and dodging people walking on the sidewalk "cars in there"

"Then where are we going" I ask him.

"Damiano came up with an idea for us to go to a club tonight so I suggest you change into that pretty dress if yours because tonight will be crazy"