I stood, looking out the window, holding my necklace in one hand.
"Darling, you okay?"
"I didn't expect that... I should have because I basically treat her like she's my daughter, but... I didn't think I'd ever get a baby girl, but she probably won't remember in the morning anyway."
"She won't, but is that something you want?" Bucky looked at me, holding my forearms.
"I... I do; it's just not safe. I... I can't pull you two down with me."
"Y/n, you would never. What would happen if we did get together and Winnie called you mom?"
"I... I ran Bucky. I dumped him and ran! He will find me sooner or later..."
"Y/n, let me help... One day, you're pushing me away, and the next, your crying in my arms. I want to help."
"Bucky, you don't get it."
"What? You were in a bad relationship. I know there is more, but I don't want to push you to talk about it. But if you need to, I'm here."
"There's so much... I can't do this until I sort my stuff out, James... Now, I'm going to bed," I walked around him to grab PJ's.
Bucky sighed and watched me grab clothing. "I'll see you tomorrow then?"
"I have vet opponents all day, but ill be back by dinner." I turned to smile at him.
"Okay," Bucky smiled.
I hugged him and buried my face in his chest. "I'm sorry... It's just a lot," I sighed and looked up at him.
"I'm sorry for pushing you," he kissed my head. "I'll see you tomorrow, now get some rest."
"You too," I smiled softly as Bucky shut the door and returned to his room. I sighed and changed into my PJs, then flopped onto the bed. Meeko wasn't sleeping with me tonight; she was with Winnie, which I didn't mind.
I laid in bed and looked out my window; I sighed and shut my eyes.
"I'm sorry, Mr.Ward and Ms. Y/l/n, about your daughter." The doctor sighed and walked out of the hospital room; I felt like I couldn't move or breathe.
"Can... Let me hold her," I held back tears. The doctor nodded and brought over my baby girl, wrapped up in a yellow blanket with red flowers. I sucked in a breath as I held her to my chest as the doctor left.
"I'm so sorry." I cried as I held my baby, "it's all my fault."
"It is, but we will be fine." Grant huffed, "I'm going to go grab a coffee." He left.
I sighed and held my baby, "I love you, so, so much... I love you with all my heart," I smiled. "I'm going to name you Amara... It means love, and I love you. You're my everything," I smiled as tears fell down my face.
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