NCT Lucas Imagines(AMBW)

10: Meant to Be

Y/n pov

"I just don't think our relationship is going anywhere." I couldn't even look at my now ex-fiance as I told him we needed to end things.

"Are you serious Y/n?" That's the third time he has asked that question since this ordeal started an hour ago.

"I know what it is, "He said lowly as he continued packing his bag.

"You're still in love with your ex aren't you?" He asked as he used his tongue to move around his lip piercing.

I looked at him, but then I had to look away. I looked at anything I could to not meet his eyes. I looked at the wall behind him, and I even ran my eyes over all his tattoos that ran up and down his arms. I might as well since this will be the last time I see them.

"Jay I'm sorry." Maybe that was a half-truth.

"Don't. He's not even thinking about you! He's in a relationship with someone." He's right, he's probably not thinking about me. But I don't care. I can't keep being with someone that I can't give my all to.

"I can't believe we've been together for three years now, and the whole time you never felt anything for me." He shook his head. I really messed up getting into this deep of a relationship knowing I wasn't ready for one.

"Jay I never said I don't love you. I do. But would you rather be half loved for the rest of your life or with someone who actually can love you the way you deserve!?" I do love Jay, but I don't feel what I should feel with him, and I can't spend the rest of my life that way. And he shouldn't either.

"That's bull! You don't love me Y/n. You probably were thinking about him every time we-" He stopped and looked down to his feet so that I wouldn't see him get choked up. But I could still see it anyway.

I think it's really hurting him now, and I can't deal with this anymore. I can't watch him break in front of me because it hurts me to know that I did this to someone like Jay. Someone who loved me with all their strength and I couldn't give that same love back.

"Jay please just go. I don't want to hurt you any more than I already have." I could see he was coming to terms with the situation by the way he placed his hand on his hip before gathering himself together and grabbing his stuff.

As he walked toward the door I don't know why part of me wanted him to say something else. Part of me wanted him to convince me to try harder. But he didn't, and I didn't say anything to stop him. Because I should let him go. He can be happier with someone other than me because my heart still belongs to Lucas even if he doesn't belong to me.

How me and Lucas broke up is so stupid, and I regret it everyday. I hate when that happens. A breakup that shouldn't have happened, but now there's no way to get back what was there. That's what happens when you let other problems overtake you and your partner as a team.

I don't want to be in this big apartment by myself right now, so I waited a little while before grabbing my phone and keys and walking out of the door. I just need to go somewhere away from here.

Lucas pov

Every day is misery. I wake up to someone who I feel no connection to anymore, and it makes me feel like the worst person on the earth. I chose today to be my last day with Soyeon. It's been two years that we've been together, but if I go on any longer with this relationship it will do nothing for either one of us.

"Lucas I think we should talk." She said as she came into the bedroom. I hadn't realized I was just staring at the floor until she interrupted my thoughts. I got up from the bed and walked over to her before speaking.