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Chapter 33

SAPHIRE POV CHAPTER 33

Waking up in the morning I have a sense of calm I haven't had in a long while. I feel as though im focused on whats to come now. My sister and her mate are trying to make it work. I gave the witch coven back over to Imani so now they are in good hands. My son is safe and even making friends. Ive convinced Siren to go back to the ocean and raise her baby there. Letting her know we will face any blow back that comes this way. She is such a gentle soul who has been through so much. I think its best if she start anew our paths will cross again. I have no clue what Nicolette had planned but I know Zaire will get on that. So right now im going to enjoy breakfast with my son. "so I'm wondering have you ever been upset that you didn't get to go to a normal school and do normal things. I worry this life has been so unfair to you Zack. I hold his hand across the table. "if I was normal mom I wouldn't have you. And what's normal anyway?" he shrugs his shoulders and shoves food in his mouth. No matter supernatural or not teenage boy will always eat.

"Whose that at door?" Zack says around a mouth full of food. Shaking my head I walk towards the front door. I kind of laugh to myself I cant remember the last time since me and Zaire moved into this house people knocked or rang the door bell. Then I stop. It's the spell. No one can enter without my consent. Feeling very accomplished I open the door. And see the man of the house stuck outside of it. " What happened here? I cant get in?" he says. I lean against the door frame. " Well I put a spell around my home. To keep out those who would do and me my son hard, bitches who overstep their boundaries, and cheating lying husbands. So now the only way into this house is with my consent." I smirk at him. And I can visibly see that he's pissed but also upset.

" It is our house sapphire, no matter what this is our family. My family. I fucked up but at least let me explain." He says. So I walk onto the porch so my son doesn't hear and I tell him to explain, that he will not be getting an invite in until I say so. "when you first saw me a Nicolette at the house she had come to the coven the night before. Cried on my shoulder that matt was gone. That the werewolves were they lived killed him. I was of course shocked because I figured most would not make such a bold move against us now that we have linked with the king. She gave me this story of jealousy and betrayal and I fell for it. I allowed her to cry on my shoulder. And when I looked down to ask her was she ok she kissed me. I was stunned then kissed her back. It was surreal ive never had a single feeling for any woman since you and it scraed me. Beast finally go ahold of me and I shoved her back. She apologized and told me not to tell you because she knew you would not forgive me. My mind was cloudy. The attack in the hotel you know that wasn't me. Not standing up for you. I would die for you." he hangs his head.

While I do know that he was completely out of character it wasn't just that I was upset about, that wasn't the root of my pain. "you let you ex that I didn't even know you had into your office. You closed a door had a private conversation with that woman. You let her lay on you and cry, and then you kissed her. So much of this is your Zaire not her, not a spell. YOU! You made choices that didn't align with our vows, you kept secrets. So no im not forgiving this. For now im done. Im fixing my life, im taking care of my kids, and im out here fighting for what is right in the world. And I man just cant fit into those plans. Because when I needed one to be honest and be my partner he let me down. Im not depending on no one but me." I tell him.

"did you figure out what her end game was?" I say switching gears. "yes, she wanted me to capture you bring you back to Matteo and he was going to rape you and enslave you. Hoping to make a son as strong as ours in the process. He believes there should be only one leader amongst not only the supernatural world but the human as well." I just shake me head after he finishes. Its truly becoming exhausting to defend the world. Everyone has a play somewhere. Nobody cares about the greater good. I look up to see him stepping closer. "lovely please let me make this up to you. You are right. I was wrong with everything but I cant live without you, its killing me." He tells me. "You know that's actual the wrong thing to say." Why is everything about how you feel. What you cant live without. None of your pain is my pain and you are in a hell of your own making. If you couldn't live without me, why did you risk me?" I walk back into the house and slam the door. Im not the same naïve girl I once was. This time he walks thru fire for me or his world can go up in flames.