to choose between

Mate or no Mate

SIREN POV

 My heart is beating out of my chest. I completely forgot he would be here. I was engaged at the time and if Silas never got me I would have lived my life out here with this gorgeous man. And the baby I’m carrying in my stomach would be his. He stands about 6 feet tall with porcelain skin. Lips that have just a hint of red to them and taste like cherry. And blue eyes so clear you can get lost in them. I can’t speak to him. My mind is going a mile a minute and my heart is fluttering. “So you’re not going to hug me Siren. Don’t just stand there come here girl” he says to me. Grabbing and pulling me into his warm embrace.  I relax to his touch. And I feel my eyes begin to water because I haven’t had a man touch me with love since him. since Nickolas. The mate bond I feel with Alaric grows weak with each passing day. And I feel the love I once had for nick fill my heart again. And finally the tears drop. And being the man he has always been and scoops me up and carries me off. “What’s wrong beautiful? What did I do? How can I make it better?” he’s whispering that to me. And now I feel even more awful. I’m hoping he’s moved on. That he’s fallen in love again. That all he wants is my friendship so I don’t have to tell him and break his heart about my mate.

“You didn’t do anything. I’ve just missed you.” I say and snuggle into him even more. “And I’ve you beautiful. You don’t have to tell me all you’ve been through just know that I never stopped loving you.” And right there I know he’s going to hate me. I know he will never want me after all I’m damaged. From Silas, and not from Alaric. And I do not want to waste a minute without telling this beautiful man the truth. Whether or not he hates me I can deal with. But he doesn’t deserve the heartbreak. “I need to tell you truth Nick. Its long and I hope you do not hate me after I’ve finished.” I say to him. And replies with “I could never hate you Siren”

I begin to tell him my story. The kidnapping, the assaults on my body, the wedding, my mate, his coldness, and now my baby girl he looks at me blankly. He stands up and punches a tree and it breaks in half. I jump from fear. I have never seen him this angry. That’s one of the things I loved about him. His calmness, and compassion. I knew he was a deadly man being the one in charges of the royal army but I never saw that side of him. He always wanted me to see him as the tender lover that he truly was. “FUCK. It was my fault Siren. I was on patrol the day you were taken. I was off having a drink with the guys to celebrate our marriage. Security was lapse because of ME. Because I put myself before my duties. Please, please, please forgive me.” he’s on his knees in front of me begging tears threatening to spill from his eyes. I’m shocked. Here he is blaming himself for my kidnapping. It wasn’t his fault. They would have taken me at some point. And the guards who were on duty some were killed or badly injured trying to save me and I couldn’t live knowing he died because of me. I just throw my arms around him and we rock back and forth together on our knees comforting each other.

Finally making our way back to the palace and into my room we sit on the bed. “So do you love him Siren? I mean the way you loved me? If so I’ll leave you alone, because all I want is your happiness.” I can tell this question scares him. I look into his eyes and answer and honestly as I can. “At first I had this great hope he’s be my soul mate in the true sense but now I know that’s not true. I do not love him from my heart, but rather from the mating bond. He’s made no effort to love me and now has rejected our daughter. And it’s not loved Nickolas its love. I still love you” I tell him and I mean every word of it. The last conversation I had with the Cassie she told me bond or no bond my child was to come first. And my happiness was just as important. And I agree. “So a little girl. I can love her as my own if you let me.” and I believe every word that he says to me. I know it’s wrong to feel this way when I’m promised to another but I can’t help the love I feel for him. And I decide to see if I can be happy here. With him. I will not sleep with or even have real physical contact with Nick until I can talk to Alaric face to face and end things. But for once in a very long time I’m happy and safe in the arms of a man……

 THIS WAS A LIL BONUS CHAPTER BEFORE I DIVE BACK IN I HAVE SOME IMPORT NOTES AND I DIDN’T WANT TO MAKE A CHAPTER JUST WITH NOTES SO I GAVE YOU SOME OF SIREN’S STORY

1.       IM GOING TO START DEDEICATING CHAPTERS TO THE COMMENT THAT SPEAKS TO ME THE MOST BUT AT THE END OF THIS PLEASE LOOK FOR YOUR NAME BECAUSE IM GOIN TO DEDICATE THIS ONE TO A BUNCH OF READERS WHOVE BEEN WITH ME FROM THE START. I CAN’T THANK YOU GUYS ENOUGH FOR THE SUPPORRT.

2.       I HAD A COMMENT THAT MY STORY MAY BE CONFUSING BECAUSE I HAVE SEVERAL POVS AND I WANT TO KNOW HOW EVERYONE FEELS ABOUT THAT. AND IF SO I CAN TRY TO CUT BACK ON SOME OF THE STORY LINES BUT HONESTLY I LIKE IT THIS WAY MY FAV SHOW IS GAME OF THRONES AND I LOVE THE STORY JUMP AROUND, BUT I WOULD HATE FOR YOU GUYS TO BE CONFUSED SO LET ME KNOW

MY DEDICATION LIST. I HOPE I DO NOT MISS SOME LOYAL COMENTORS IF SO PLEASE INBOX ME I LOVE YOU ALL THO I JUST FEEL THE NEED TO SHOUT SOME OF YOU OUT WHO JUMPED ON BORAD WITH THIS STORY EVEN WHEN I WASNT SURE IT WAS GOOD ENOUGH TO BE READ. THANK YOU

SIXK66

MARCIAJBRAY

ZIGGYZIGGY

FISHYRYCKMAN

AUDREY_BAE

LACEYMOON

JERZ12170

HALOESANGEL

PEGGYBROWN4

KIRSTIESARDIS

ERICACZ

SKYELERSWAGG

THERE’S GOING TO BE ANOTHER GROUP DEDICATION IN ABOUT 3 CHAPTERS BECAUSE I HAVE ABOUT 5 PEOPLE WHO ARE NEW BIG COMMENTORS OVER THESE LAST  3 OR SO CHAPTERS SO WATCH OUT FOR YOUR NAME ON THAT LIST. THANKS FOR READING EVERYONE.