Maknae On Top

21.

I gasped "Felix!"
He shook his hands "that kiss meant nothing! It was just to shut you up! And hey it worked?!"
I shook my head "not only am I simping for Kang but I've kissed you, Jeongin's good friend!"
Felix sighed about to say something until I notice the doors open and Jeongin's standing there in shock and with a heartbroken expression...

I gasped "Jeongin!" I said about to hug him to apologise, he pushed me away "don't touch me"
I shook my head as Felix touched Jeongin's shoulder "both of you just fuck off! Felix you were supposed to be one of my best friends! And Chai you were supposed to be my loyal girlfriend!"
Felix defended me "Jeongin listen, be angry at me not her, I kissed her and she didn't even want it! And also the kiss was just to make her stop talking its the truth!"
Jeongin slammed his hand on the wall "just shut up!"
He said while walking off as he nudged Chris out of the way as Chris looked at us confused "what'd you guys do to piss him off?"

Felix sniffed "Chan I'm sorry"
Chan raised his eyebrows "why?"
Felix bit his nails thinking for the right words.. "I kissed Chai, it was to make her stop talking! It meant nothing! I like you Chan and I didn't mean for this to happen"
Chan crossed his arms "I believe you..I don't know why but I believe you, I heard her yelling so.."
I hugged chan and Felix feeling terrible even though it wasn't my doing.

I walked out with the others, I unlocked my phone to see...

I felt terrible, after what happened he's still being nice to me..
I read the message stopping in my tracks feeling a wave of guilt, I ran to the bathroom crying locking the door.
I heard an instant knock "can I come in?"
I didn't know who it was "who is it?"
The soft voice echoed "Kang-"
I softly smiled and opened the door then closed it and locked it once again.
He sat next to me wiping a tear from my cheek "you okay?"

I sniffled "no..."
He asked hesitantly "how come? I know it's not my business but I want to make sure you're okay.."
I huffed "because Felix kissed me and Jeongin is still with me and I feel guilty!"
Kang put his hand on my shoulder "if it was Felix who kissed you it's not your fault"
I nodded "I hope that's how Jeongin sees the situation, but I don't want him to fall out and be angry with Felix."

I sighed "I just get so scared every time Jeongin gets angry because the last relationship I was in was abusive"
I know you guys were probably thinking I've told you everything about me and Jang..but let's just say not exactly..
Kang inhaled "what do you mean?" He said with a concerned expression.

I explained "my ex cheated on me for my fake best friend.."
Before I found out he was cheating..
"Well the first time I forgot to put the dish  washer on and he grabbed me and..."
Kang asked worried "and?"
I can't believe I'm telling Kang about this and not Jeongin...
I continued "he slapped me..then.."
I gulped "he did other..unexplainable abusive actions..I told my friends it was just a skateboard accident.."

Kang hugged me "I've known all 8 of them boys for years, they've done some crazy shit but one thing I know they'll never do, especially Jeongin, is abuse a female, their all gentlemen's trust me..Jeongin won't hurt you"

I sobbed "I feel like a tramp, it's not my fault but Hyunjin had the hots for me, Felix kissed me, I've had romantic interactions and relationship with Jeongin"
Kang shook his head "Felix kissed you for the sake to make you stop talking, Hyunjin liked you and doesn't anymore and plus you can't control who he likes, and you and Jeongin are perfect"

I huffed "I wish we were perfect, we have had so many dramas, I got spiked, he got a girlfriend forgetting about me, I kissed Hyunjin in a game of spin the bottle, Felix kissed me, so much shit had happened"
Kang nodded "don't let that happen, stay away from what's causing the drama"
I sighed "I don't know what's causing the drama though.."
I thought about it... "I'm what's causing the drama.."
He went to comfort me until I stood up opening the door "Thankyou so much for the advice and comfort Kang!"
I said while running out the door, I left the apartment running faster than I ever have, checking Jeongin's Snapchat map to see his whereabouts.
He was down at the water front.
I ran there looking around for him.

I looked on a bench and saw him sitting by himself sitting looking depressed while daydreaming.
I sat next to him "I'm sorry.."
He huffed while looking at me "I told you I'm not ready to talk.."
I nodded "I know but, I've thought about why there's so much drama in our relationship, it's all because of me.."

He nodded and hugged me "you can't help the fact you got spiked or the fact two of my members kissed you"
I sniffed "I'm sorry for hurting you..Jeongin"
He shook his hands burying his head in my shoulder "it's okay, I'll always end up forgiving you because I love you to much to leave you"
I sobbed "I love you too, I love you more than anyone or anything I've ever witnessed and I never want to hurt you"
He sniffled while kissing me passionately and holding my hand.
He brushed his hand along my cheek wiping away a tear.
He wrapped his arms around me while kissing my lips continuously.

I explained "I don't want to be cringe or anything but I really am deeply in love with you, if anything happened to you I'd be an emotional wreck, I've never been this in love with any human before"
He giggled "not even blackpink?"
I stifled a laugh "not even blackpink"
He kissed me on the cheek as I explained how late it was getting and I had to get home.

I held his hand as he walked me home.
He kissed me and waved me goodbye at my front door.
I went to bed thinking about him and I even had a dream about us..
I'm really obsessed with Yang Jeongin...