Maknae On Top

26.

He moved closer to me as his hips bumped against mine, I felt his breath on my face as he was standing super close to me..
I softly smiled as he held my hand and kissed me, I missed the feeling of Jeongin holding my hand, his soft hands..and the feeling of his lips on mine..

He released from the kiss and moved his hand to my shoulder as he kissed me again, and again, and again...he slowly began moving his hips against mine-

I inhaled as he slowly made his way to my neck and kissed my neck.
He looked at me and back at my lips as he tucked my hair behind my ear.
He stopped kissing my neck and I noticed he left a red mark..oh wait- that's what I think it is it's a .. hIcKeY
Oh god I see where this is going-

I let out a deep breath as I said "maybe I should wait for that mark to go away before we see the others" I said nervously laughing.
He giggled softly and stopped as he slowly retraced his lips from my neck.
I looked at him and back in the mirror.. "Jeongin maybe this isn't a good idea.."
He looked at me concerned "what's wrong?"
"Well it's just we need to take it slow.."
He looked at me confused "you think I was gonna go further?"
I shook my head "that was far enough"
He nodded "whatever"

I sighed "why are you cracking the shits? Because I didn't wanna have s-"
He raised his voice "no! I'm not like that, I thought you'd know me well enough by now, if you don't wanna do it, we won't do it"

I shook my head "it's not that I don't wanna do it or I don't like you it's because I don't wanna make up in two seconds, we just got back in contact, maybe save that stuff for when we've been speaking longer"
He nodded "I understand, don't worry"

I got a call, a friend I made over the past 7 months, I had no Jeongin and the boys to hang out with and La Eun and Hosa were always working, me and Kang haven't spoken in a while so- I made a new guy friend, not to replace Jeongin just to have a male figure to go to for advice that you can't get off girls. His name is Chen and he's very sweet.

I noticed I was getting a call from him as my heart dropped out of excitement and intrigue.
I answered with a soft and unintentional flirty voice "hey Chennie!"
Chen answered "Hey chai! Wanna hang out?"
I looked at Jeongin for permission as he shrugged, "as long as he's nice"
I scoffed "Chen there's a friend of mine I think you'd love to meet, I'll bring him where will we meet?"
Chen stuttered "your house if it's easier"
I chuckled "sure, cya soon!"
He responded "cya!"

As soon as Jeongin saw me press the hang up button he swarmed me with questions "is he good looking? Is he nice? Does he treat you well? How old is he? Are you dating? Have you kissed? Have you held hands? Do you look at him the same way you look at me?"
I groaned "calm down Jeongin he's just a friend!"
Jeongin huffed "that's what you said about me"
I shook my head trying to hold in my tears once again "I wish our love wasn't so toxic.." I said shaking my head and walking off as I heard the front door open, I was to be greeted by a kind smile "hello!" Said Chen enthusiastically which instantly lifted my mood.

I grinned "hey!"
He asked excitedly "so where's your friend?"
Jeongin walked in with his arms crossed and a stern look "I'm a friend huh?" I rolled my eyes pretending to ignore Jeongin's childishness "this is him" I said nervously.
Chen offered to shake Jeongin's hand- Jeongin deadpanned him as it happened "hey I'm Chen!"
Jeongin inhaled "I'm Jeongin"

I clapped my hands together and explained "so what do you guys wanna do?"
Jeongin huffed "I'll probably leave, seeing our relationship is just a lost cause" he said slamming the door.
I groaned as I wanted to chase after Jeongin but I also didn't want to leave Chen behind...
It's like Chen knew what I was thinking "go get him I'll be fine!"
I hugged Chen rush fully "thank you Chennie!"

I scattered out the front door with speed and caught up to Jeongin who was storming down the pathway.
He huffed "go away"
I shook my hands "what do you mean lost cause?"
He pressed his lips together and his eyes welled up "I think that the only reason why you're still around me
is because you know I'm right, you know the relationship will die, you are just trying to sticky tape it back together but I think it's lost, everything we had, it's just lost"

I followed him the whole way to the dorm trying to convince him that we were still going, I held on even though the more I tried to convince him, the more angry he would get..
He slammed the door in my face as I got the secret spare key from under the mat, Felix the cheeky elf told me where the key was placed.
I opened the door looking for Jeongin.

I sighed "Jeongin it's not lost, well it is lost, but if you loose something the only thing to do is give up and leave it, or we can find that spark again and we'll be happy"
He groaned "Chai you need to wake up, life isn't all happy endings, it's not all sunshine and rainbows!"
I nodded "I know, but I just-"
He interrupted "the only reason why you're still around me is because I was your first love and you feel bad."

I sniffled "no, it's because I don't want all our feelings for each other and all out time spent together to go down the drain, the time we have together is the only time I feel completed and happy and I love you!"
He sighed "I still love you but you've lost your spark, you don't show you love me, and if hurting me is your way of showing love then I'm done."
I defended "you know what, give me all of tomorrow, that spark will be back, you just wait"
He nodded with a slight smile "hmm fine"

I gave him a soft grin as I gave him a quick kiss on the cheek and I ran out the door waving him goodbye, my mood instantly lighting up.
I was happy for two seconds until I see the elevator open as I'm welcomed with three people in the elevator-

Lee Felix, Bangchan and last but not least..Hwang Hyunjin-
I nervously waved at Hyunjin but he didn't seem awkward, the second that the three of them saw me they instantly ran up to me and hugged me-
Felix screeched "I missed you so much!"
Bangchan slightly hugged a bit tighter "thank-you for coming back it was so empty without you"
Hyunjin nodded and smiled agreeing with what Felix and Chan said.
Bangchan stuttered awkwardly "I'll just- um-uh I'll leave should two I guess?" He said as he guided Felix to the dorm room.

Hyunjin tapped his own shoulder "so..."
I looked at him with a confused but happy expression "so?"
He sighed "why'd you come here?"
I scoffed "to fix stuff with Jeongin, we're slowly falling apart and I don't want to loose him"
Hyunjin scratched his neck "I am so so so so so so soooooo sorry for that day"
I shook my head "it's fine, did Jeongin forgive you?"
He nodded "we talked it out and yea"
I hopped my hands up and down "sweet...well nice seeing you Hyunnie! I'll cya another time, possibly tomorrow!"
He pointed at me excitedly "I'll see you then!"