Life of Death

I Miss You

I miss you...
I thought I was doing ok
I hadn't cried for days
In fact I was crying less than when I was with you
I was eating and smiling and laughing and getting on with life

But then I got drunk...
And I just started crying because I missed you
Because I remembered a photo in that exact spot when I was drunk with you
Because I wanted cuddles but you weren't there to give them
Because even in my drunk half conscious brain I just wanted you
You were my everything

And then I watched a sad movie...
"Human touch. We need that touch from the one we love, almost as much as we need air to breathe. But I never understood the importance of touch. His touch. Until I couldn't have it. So if you're watching this, and you're able, touch him. Touch her. Life's too short to waste a second."
But I can't touch you, I can but I can't
As much as I want to I gave that up and I can't go back now
It's not fair to go back now
I made my decision, I don't know if it was the right one but I need to stick by that because it's not fair to go back

I miss you but I can't have you...
You were the thing that made me happiest
Sometimes you were the only thing that made me happy
But you were also the thing that made me saddest
Sometimes you made me very sad
I'm not sure if I made the right decision
But I still want you
I still love you
I still miss you

I don't think I'll ever fully stop loving you