Life of Death

Hiding

I've been better, I rarely feel the urge to self harm, I don't feel like dying much and I can be kind of happy most days. My life is good right now, I have an amazing boyfriend, I'm not failing any subjects this year, I have a group of friends that aren't too bad and I'm getting more confident. I can talk to teachers and I asked for help for the first time in as long as I can remember. I rarely get as anxious as I used to be.
Most people would say that my depression is gone, I know better, it's hiding in the shadows ready to pounce.  I don't feel it right now, it's gone for a while but I know it will be back because it always is. That's how it's always been, I'll be fine for a couple of months but it always comes back. This time is different, I've been better for longer. I may have a bad period for a week or two but then I get better and I go back to being ok. I know it will be back but all I can hope is that maybe, just maybe, I will be alright this time.