Loving Her (TeacherxStudent)

Chapter 18.

Emily's POV

I wake up and instantly go down to my gym. I use it to sometimes relive stress or use it as a distraction.

I want to open up to Peyton, i really do it's just i usually don't and scared of her reaction. I want to tell her the reason why i am this way. She's slowly but surely tearing my walls down one by one and that scares the hell out of me because once i do it's going to be a person who's scared of everything.

I finish my workout and take me a shower while i do that i still think about the way Peyton makes me feel, she makes me want to bring my guards down especially when I'm with her.

Wait... Do i have feelings for her?

No it can't be right.

I can't let that happen.

Why does my heart always beats faster when she's around.

That's because you like her idiot. My thoughts said.

No i don't right...

I can't be having these thoughts for my student. I will lose my career

But all I want to do is kiss her. And just love her forever.

I'm definitely fucked

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Peyton's POV

I keep thinking what mom told me. That I'm in love with Emily.

But i can't be

She's my teacher i can't think about this. Why is this so hard. I just want to be with her no consequences no trouble. Just us loving each other.

I shake these thoughts away and go downstairs. I see mom and dad both at the table.

"What's wrong with you." Mom asked concerned.

I walk to the fridge and get me a bottle of water. "Nothing... Why?" I opened it and chugged some of it down.

Mom looks at me a little longer to see if she can find out what's wrong. She signs "Because you look sad."

I sign and look down before i could say anything dad says "What's got you sad pumpkin."

"Emily okay.. she consums my thoughts all day and i want to be with her but I'm her student and we can't be in a relationship, she might lose her career and it's messing with me." I slightly raise my voice and tears rolls down my cheeks.

Mom comes over to me and gives me a tight hug while i cry lightly.

"Oh honey, i can't tell you how to go about with this situation because i don't know, maybe talk it out with her." Dad says trying to make me feel better.

"I can't because when I do she'll know i have feelings for her and not want to talk to me. This is so hard." I groan while i take a big gulp of my water.

"I know honey, just keep talking to her but don't tell her about your feelings just yet and then see how it goes from there." Mom suggested while giving my arm a tight squeeze.

"Ugh I'm going to go drive and clear my head i seriously can't think straight. I'll be back later before dinner." I go get my phone, wallet and grab my range rover car keys.

"Bye sweetie." I nodded my head and closed the door behind me.

I get my Range Rover and plug in my aux cord to my phone. I put on some music to drown out my sorrows.

While I'm driving my mind goes back to Emily. I really want to be with her but i know she has went through so much in her childhood, i just hope she opens up to me. I want to feel like her safe space as she is for me.

I drive towards the cafe so i could get something to eat. I make sure I grab my wallet this time. I lock my car and head inside. I pull the door open and head to the front. I scan the menu and ending up getting some donuts and a macchiato.

I then see Emily here.

Why do i always run into her.

I walk over to the table she is at and sit down.

"Hello Peyton." She said in the most monotone voice.

"Hello Ms. Davis." I tilted my head to the side.

"Call me Emily please." I nodded my head.

We continue to eat and stare at each other, just enjoying each other's company.

"Can I have some advice." I ask hopefully she wouldn't know what i mean.

"Sure go ahead." She kept looking at me.

"Okay so there is this wo-- girl who secretly has feelings for this other girl but the thing is they can't be together. And the first girl really wants that, she's going crazy not being able to kiss her all day. Like what should they do." I took a deep breath hoping she got that all.

"Firstly if the first girl has feelings for the other girl she should say something because what if the second girl also has feelings but if afraid to say something. They could keep their relationship a secret and wait until they can be together." She said with a glint of amusement to them.

Wait is she hinting something.. No she can't be right.

"Thank you Emily." I tried to study her.

"What?" She lightly chuckled. "I want to get to know you." I see her slightly tense at the statement but quickly relaxed.

"What do you want to know." She took a deep breath trying to ease herself.