It started after you constantly told me I have gained weight
So i thought I would prove you wrong so I did I didn't eat "junk food "
I cut out my favorite foods I started running I started working out.
It soon became an addiction a bad addiction
Why you may ask ?
I became addicted to the scale going lower and lower
It started by me weighing myself once a month
Then twice a month
Then 1 once a week
Then 2 twice a week
Then 7 times a week
Then 3 times a day
This addiction had me losing myself
I no longer wanted to lose weight I wanted to disappear
I wanted to disappear completely
This addiction had me damaged
Damaged beyond repair why?
I lost what made me a woman
I lost it and slowly this addiction was visible
Constantly counting calories
To be skinny eat these many they said
I halved those
Slowly I halved myself
And the day the addiction of going lower stopped
When I fainted on a run with friends and the guy I liked in Germany
This addiction had me miss out on memories I could never get back
So now I stand saying I no longer want to go lower I want to be stronger
-Dania Punjani
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TWO FACED
PoetryI present TWO FACED a collection of poems written by me Dania Punjani regarding mental health . Some of these poems are what i have experienced regarding my mental health as a girl and the damage society causes to us precious beings . I hope my poet...