He Saved Me

Chapter 10

Dominque's Pov

Finn had manged to calm me down again after I had another panic attack. Jacob had taken Ashton from my room when I began to get worked up again. I didn't want him to see me like that. What would Ashton think of me? Someone who says they want to be their dom but can't even talk to them without crying. This wasn't me, not at all. I didn't act like this not since I moved in with Finn.

"Hey Dom, we're gonna go home. We can take Ashton with us for a few nights. It'll give you some time to collect yourself and decided what you really want." Finn said sticking his head in the door.

"Take him?" I mumbled.

Finn came and sat at the edge of my bed with a look I didn't like on his face.

"Yeah just for a few nights. He needs stability and well he's pretty freaked out by everything. Ashton has had a rough past, you know that. Jake will take care of him you don't have to worry about that."

What he was saying made sense but I couldn't let Ashton leave. He would never come back to me. What if he wanted Finn instead? Was he really a better dom than me? We didn't always see eye to eye on the role of a dom and sub. Especially after he found Jacob and he seemed to change completely. 

"No," I said sitting up from my bed, "Ashton stays here."

"No Dom, he isn't staying here. He needs to be safe."

I could tell Finn regretted the words as soon as they left him mouth.

"You think I can't keep him safe? I have never let a sub get hurt in my life! I don't know what the hell is wrong with me or why I feel like this! I would never let a sub get hurt especially Ashton. Hell he isn't even my sub yet and you still think you can take him away from me?" 

I was even more upset now as I began to pace back and forth in front of my bed. I couldn't stop the thoughts running through my mind. Even Finn didn't think I could look after Ashton. We may not always agree but Finn never doubted my ability to care for a sub.

"I didn't mean that, you know how to keep your subs safe. I meant emotionally Ashton just needs stability right now. He's scared Dom, you don't want him to be afraid do you?"

I sighed and turned to face Finn.

"I don't want him to leave Finn, I need him to stay."

"Just a couple nights, okay?" Finn asked resting his hand on my shoulder.

It was almost like I felt my body shut down and all I could do was nod my head. Finn removed his hand from my shoulder and I heard his footsteps leaving. Would Ashton ever want to come back? Had I lost him forever because I couldn't control myself? This isn't me, it can't be who I am.

"Sir?" 

Ashton's voice broke my heart as I could tell he was crying without seeing his face. I turned to see him standing in the doorway and his whole body was shaking as he cried.

"Oh baby," I whispered as I quickly made my way to him.

I wanted to scoop him into my arms and hold him tight but I didn't want to cause him any more harm. I hesitated and instead knelt in front of him. 

"I'm sorry sir, I didn't mean to be bad. I'll be so good! I'll sign the paper! I will sir, you can do punishments on me everyday. Please don't send me away, you said you wanted me to stay. I'll be the best sub ever sir, I'll learn everything and be so good! Sir please!"

Ashton was now sobbing heuristically and I could no longer stop myself from reaching for him. I wrapped my arms around him and held him tight against my body. He fit so well in my arms as he pressed his ear against my chest.

"You aren't bad at all honey. You've done nothing wrong at all. This is all my fault and I need to get myself together. Finn is gonna take you to their house for a little so I can get fixed," I said trying to explain what was going on.

"You don't want me!" Ashton yelled pushing himself away from me. "Let go of me! You lied to me, you promised me I could stay here and be safe! You lied to me!"

"Hey, that's enough. Let's go." Finn said stepping into the room. 

He was using is dom voice and even though Ashton wasn't an official sub he was affected.  He froze in my arms and his eyes became unfocused as he started to shake.

"Now Ashton. This is not okay behavior for either of you," Finn said making eye contact with both of us.

He reached forward to take Ashton's arm and he flinched hiding himself in my shirt. I didn't hesitate to wrap my arms around him and scoop him up making sure to hold all his weight.

"I think it's time for you and Jacob to go. I appreciate you coming over in my moment of weakness. But you are not my dom and will not be taking Ashton out of my home without his permission. He does not want to leave and just because my emotions are a bit messed up doesn't mean he needs to leave."

As I talked I felt myself becoming the dom I knew I was. Finn was not my both and certainly not going to force Ashton away from me. If Ashton wanted to stay he would stay. I gently rubbed his back as his sobs seemed to calm as his body was not shaking as violently. 

"Dom, you know I'm not trying to boss you around. I'm trying to look out for you. Remember what happens when you lose control?"

"Finley I think it's time for you to leave. I will give Ashton Jacob's phone number in case he needs you. Now please, go." I said keeping my voice calm but Finn got the message.

Bringing up my past to use against me was crossing the line. He knew better than to bring up my past in front of others especially someone like Ashton. Hell Jacob didn't even know the whole truth. He just knew I had a rough past and Finn's family was nice enough to save their son's best friend. 

"Goodnight Ashton, call Jake anytime, okay buddy? Night Dom," Finn said as he left the room.

I heard some hushed discussion and then footsteps to the front door. Ashton flinched in my arms but he was no longer crying.