He Saved Me

Chapter 8

Dominique's Pov

After Ashton took him medicine he settled in on the couch to watch T.V. I began to make supper by boiling a pot of water while cooking some meat in a frying pan. After adding seasoning and finishing the noddles I started on the sauce. When I finished my simple meal of spaghetti and garlic bread I brought Ashton a plate. 

"Do you want more lemonade?" I asked.

Ashton refused to meet my eyes as he took the plate from me but he nodded his head. I went back into the kitchen to get his drink before getting my own plate. I sat down on the other end of the couch to eat my meal. I kept sneaking glances at Ashton to make sure he was okay. There was a small amount of sauce around his mouth as he continued to eat. I tried not to laugh at how cute he looked while he was eating.

"Sir?"

"Yes Ashton?'

"Can we talk now?"

I sighed and put my plate down on the table so Ashton had my full attention. Catfish played on the T.V. but I had Ashton's full attention and could tell he was nervous. 

"Okay, lets talk. What questions do you have for me?" I asked.

Ashton didn't answer instead he starting picking at the lose threads on the blanket.

"You asked me a question earlier which I can answer if you want."

"Yes sir." Ashton whispered.

"I want you to know that whatever I say doesn't change anything. You are free to stay here as long as you like with no expectations for you to pay me back. I have feelings for you which may seem strange but I just want you to be safe. I might not know what happened in your life but living in the streets isn't safe for you. If you don't want to stay with me at least let me find you somewhere safe to stay."

Tears began to stream down Ashton's face and he shakily raised his hands to his face. I wanted to reach out to him but I didn't want to cause any more damage to the poor boy. Instead I placed my hand face up on the couch between us.

"I'm not a sadist, I don't like inflicting pain on people for my own pleasure. But I am a dominate which can sometimes become confusing for someone who doesn't understand. I like to be in charge when I'm with a submissive but I've never done something they didn't want. Sometimes during a punishment a sub may experience pain, but nothing that wasn't agreed upon in their contract. Look Ashton, I just I need to be open with you about everything. I know you have a lot of questions and I can do my best to answer them."

Ashton was quite for a long time and he looked deep in thought. I tried not to worry myself with the idea that he would want to leave but it was hard. 

"Do you want me to be your submissive to punish, sir?"

Ashton's voice shook as he spoke which broke my heart and I wanted nothing more than to comfort him. My hand lay untouched between us so I knew not to push things and cause more terror. 

"I don't want you to be my sub to punish you. I do want you to be my sub though but for many other reasons."

Ashton's breathing hitched and he pulled his legs tight to his chest. I reached out but quickly stopped myself  before touching his arm.

"That might have come out wrong, honey. I don't want to hurt you at all. I would never want to hurt you. Being a dom is more than just causing pain to a submissive. I want to care for you and look out for you. I want to be able to protect you and help you make decisions that might be difficult. I don't want you to feel pressured into this decision, like I said you can stay here with no strings attached."

"Do you like me?"

"What?" I asked not understanding the question.

"Do you like me?"

"Of course I do Ashton. I mean it may sound crazy but from the moment I saw you I knew you were different. I'm not going to lie I'm not the friendliest person in the world. Finn will be the first to tell you that. I feel something different with you and it scares me. I am a dom and that's never going to change but I don't want to create a contract with you. I don't want you to be just another one of my subs that after the contract is over you leave. I want to get to know you and grow a relationship with you." 

I was rambling and needed to stop to catch my breathe. 

"Wow, I sound crazy, you must think I'm insane. I'm so sorry Ashton, I just, I don't know what's wrong with me. I guess I just have these strong feelings for you but I'm saying way to much. I just wanted to let you know what kind of things I'm into because it's always going to be apart of me. I can't help that Ashton and I'm sorry. I know you're afraid and I can tell somebody hurt you but I'm just the way I am. I would rather be up front with you and have you know before anything starts. I just, I'm sorry Ashton." I mumbled.

I was pacing the room trying to calm myself down but I realized I couldn't breathe. My hands reached for my hair but brushed my wet cheeks and I froze. My back was towards Ashton and I could feel his eyes trained in on me. I ran for the door needing to be as far away from everyone as I could. I couldn't handle this feeling of not being in control of my emotions. I was panicking and as hard as I tried I couldn't get myself to breathe. I was gasping for air as I ran up the stairs needing to find fresh air. My vision blurred causing me to angrily wipe my eyes trying to stop the tears. I reached the door to the roof and fell to the stone ground. I dug in my pocket trying to find my phone. I needed help, I needed Finn. I finally found my phone but nothing was working, I couldn't see the screen. What the hell was wrong with me? Why wasn't I in control? 

"Dom? It's me, it's Ashton."

Oh my God Ashton! I had forgotten about Ashton who had to watch my freak out.

"I'm here, it's okay Dom, I'm here."

Suddenly I felt hands on my arms and then there was weight in my lap. Hands were on my face and there was something against my neck.

"Dom? Can you hear me?"

Ashton. I wanted to answer him but I couldn't even open my mouth. How pathetic of me.

"It's scary isn't it? Being so upset you can't control  your body. It's okay though, I'm here, I'll help you."

I tried opening my eyes but it was like I wasn't able to control my own body. Ashton's hands were on my cheeks now wiping at my tears. Next they were in my hair pulling but not enough to hurt. There was pressure around my back and I felt his body heat through my shirt. I just wanted to hug him back, I wanted my arms to move.

"You gotta breathe and then you'll feel okay."

It seemed like hours before I could catch my breathe but finally I could control my body. I wrapped Ashton in my arms holding him closer to me if possible.

"I'm sorry Ashton, this isn't me." I whispered.

When I was finally calmed down enough to realize we needed to go inside. I carefully stood up with Ashton in my arms and felt him tighten his grip.