He Saved Me

Chapter 11

Ashton's Pov

"Let's go to bed okay?" Dominique mumbled.

I snuggled closer to Dominique if that was even possible. I didn't want to leave and go live with strangers even though that's pretty much what I was doing now. I didn't really know Dominique except for what he told me. I didn't know why but I wanted to stay in his arms for as long as possible. I felt Dominique walk through the rooms but I kept my eyes shut. When we stopped moving I took a peek to see we were in the room that has become mine.

"Here ya go," Dominique said as he started to put me down.

I felt myself start to panic as Dominique put me down but I tried to stop it. I kept my eyes down and laid down on the bed with my back to him. I could feel my body shake as I couldn't control my breathing anymore.

"Ashton?"

I felt the bed dip next to me and a gentle weight on my leg. I no longer could stay quiet as I began to sob aloud. 

"What's wrong? Hey, come on please, baby what's wrong?"

I could hear the panic in Dominique's voice without even looking at him. What was wrong? I have no idea why I was acting like this. It was time to sleep which is something I used to do on the streets, by myself. Why did I think he would take me to his bed when he was going to send me away? I'm to much trouble, he'd never want me in his bed after I caused him to be so upset.

"Baby, I'm right here. I'm so sorry if I made you upset. Please talk to me so I can make it better."

Baby. Why call me baby when he's just going to send me away. Suddenly I was no longer laying down but I was sitting in Dominique's lap.

"Baby, my baby boy, it's okay. I'm right here, I'm not going anywhere." Dominique whispered as he played with my hair.

I don't know how long we stayed like that but I eventually calmed down. 

"Are you okay now?" 

I nodded my head not trusting myself to use my voice. Dominique kept rubbing my back and he placed a kiss on the top of my head.

"Can you tell me what's wrong? Did I do something?" Dominique asked as he looked down at me.

"I - I don't know," I mumbled keeping my eyes downcast. 

"That's okay, it's okay."

"I'm sorry I know I'm being a bother," I said climbing out of Dominique's lap.

I laid back down in the bed thinking he would go to bed himself. He didn't move though and instead I felt the bed dip next to me.

"Hey, that's not true at all. You aren't a bother especially when you feel upset, you will never bother me."

He wanted to send me away, how can he say I'm not a bother. All I seem to do is get upset and bother Dominique and his brother.

"You wanted me to leave, you don't want me to stay here," I whispered as tears started to leak from my eyes.

"Ashton, can you look at me?"

I didn't want to move but I could tell he was waiting for me. I slowly turned over to face him but I couldn't meet his eyes.

"I don't want you to leave, I never wanted you to leave. Finn thought that's what would be best for you because I was so upset. Finn isn't used to me not being in control of things. Hell I'm not use to being out of control either. It hasn't happened for a long time, before I became a dom I was like that a lot. That's why I like control, it makes me feel better to be a dom."

He reached out slowly as wiped my cheeks gently with his thumbs. I peeked up at him to see him smiling down at me.

"I know it's scary to be here with a bunch of strangers. Everything seems to be out of your control, doesn't it? I - I'm always going to be a dom, I don't think I can give that up. If that's not something you're okay with I understand. It's not for everybody and I won't force you into anything. I just I feel very connected to you and I want to protect you from the rest of the world."

"Me?" I whispered as I was shocked by Dominique wanting to protect me.

"If that's what you want, we can go as slow as you need baby."

I couldn't help the blush that covered my cheeks at the name he called me.

"What do you think?" Dominique asked gently.

"Can I sleep in your bed?"

"Of course!" Dominique said with a laugh.

He scooped me up quickly and made his way to his room. He dropped me onto his bed where I landed with a bounce. I couldn't help the giggle that escaped as I smile appeared on my face. Dominique was smiling back at me as he dug through his drawers.

"Here," Dominique said as he handed me a shirt "it's gonna be a little big but we can go shopping for clothes soon."

"Thank you, Sir," I said as I took the shirt.

Dominique turned his back to me as I quickly got changed into his shirt.

"I'm all done Sir."

He turned around with a smile on his face which caused me to smile back.

"You look beautiful in my clothes, maybe we won't go shopping after all," Dominique said as he sent me a wink.

Dominique went into the bathroom and came out a few moments later in a pair of basketball shorts. He seemed to hesitate in the doorway before slowly walking towards the bed. Does he not want to sleep in the same bed as me? Last time he slept on the couch when I slept in his bed. How stupid am I to ask to sleep in Dominique's bed when he's going to sleep on the couch.

"Hey, what's going on in that head of your? You look upset," Dominique asked as now he was  a few steps away from me.

"I'm sorry, I'll go back to my bed now." I mumbled.

I quickly stood up and moved to leave the room but Dominique's arm stopped me. He scrunched up his eyebrows and gave me a funny look.

"You're leaving? I thought you wanted to sleep in my bed."

I opened my mouth to reply but I didn't know what to say. How was I supposed to tell Dominique I had nightmares and didn't want to be alone? How do I tell him that I feel safe when he's around? I don't want to be needy, that's why everyone gets rid of me.

"You can sleep in my bed and I'll take the couch," Dominique said as he started to leave the room.

"Sir! Please!" I yelled before I could stop myself.

I instantly covered my head as I was ready to get a beating for yelling. Instead Dominique knelt down in front of me and held out his hand.

"I'm not going to hurt you. Do you want to show me where you want me to go? That way you don't have to use your words but I can still help you."

I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding and took his hand. I gently pulled him back to his bed and he sat down. I pointed to the pillow and he laid down but kept holding onto my hand. I slowly climbed in next to him but made sure to watch his face. If he didn't want me here I would leave and go back to my bed. That's where I belonged anyway not here in bed with Dominique.

"Just so you know I like to cuddle in my sleep," Dominique whispered as he turned to face me.

I opened my mouth but I didn't know what to say so I simply nodded. 

"If you don't want me here I can go sleep somewhere else. Whatever you need baby, just tell me so I can help you."

I quickly shook my head which caused Dominique to pull me closer to him. My head rested against his chest as I listened to his heartbeat he ran his fingers through my hair.