Everything I've Wanted (Lumity Beta Sibling AU Fanfic)

Secrets and Regrets

Luz POV:

After a long day of hanging with my cru- BEST FRIEND, it was time to go.

"Bye Ams!" I said as I hugged her, then walking away.

"B-bye Luz." I smiled as I looked back at her and then I continued walking.

I put my headphones on then pulled out my phone to listen to some music. I started walking while nodding my head to the beat of the song.

The walk was quiet, nothing disturbing me except some cars who whipped past me a little too fast. It annoyed me a bit because it kept moving my jacket. I didn't really wanna start anything, so I just dealt with it and kept walking to me and my sisters apartment.

I opened the door to see my sisters jacket on the couch. I knew that she was here so I just walked across the hall and passed her room so I could go to mine. Her door was closed and I heard slight music coming from it. I didn't want to mess with her at the moment so I just passed her room.

I walked into my room and took my denim jacket off and threw my shoes into the closet. I dropped back onto my bed and looked at my ceiling.

I started to think about Amity. I mean, I just got done hanging with her maybe I can think about future plans we can have on our next date- hangout.

I shook my head, getting that last thought out of my head. I pulled out my phone and started to text Amity.

[Me]
Hey Ams! wasssupppp :P

[AMSSSSSS <3]
Nothing much. You?

[Me]
Nothin rlly i just got home :I

[AMSSSSSS <3]
Same. Just sitting here texting you. Which I enjoy.

[Me]
Aww so cuteeeeeeeee

[AMSSSSSS <3]
Luz stop. Its not that cute.

[Me]
Fineeeeeee im gonna go see what my sister is doing bye ams!

[AMSSSSSS <3]
Alright. Bye Luz!

I was going to send I love you after that but just deleted it after.

I heard my sister walk out of her room cursing under her breath. I saw a glimpse of her, she was definitely angry. I heard the front door open, then close.

I didn't wanna be that kind of sister thats just in their siblings business. I really wanted to see what was happening though. So I decided I would..

Follow her.

Not my best choice, of course. But I just to make sure my sister is okay. So, I put my jacket on and since I still had my shoes on, I walked out that door!

When I walked, I saw that she was going near some alleyway and then reaching in her pocket.

'What is she hiding?'

'I hope its nothing too dangerous..'

'I hope shes okay.'

She went near the wall of the alleyway and I only saw what I never would've seen again.

Her smoking.

"What the hell Lucia?!" She jumped at the presence of me as I slowly walked towards her. "I thought you would stop! You PROMISED ME!" I felt a tear fall from my eye as I looked at her.

"I'm sorry okay? It just calms-" "DOESN'T CALM A DAMN THING!" I yelled, cutting her off.

"Luz, let me finish." I started balling my eyes out as I tried to look at her but my eyesight was a little blurry from the tears.

"I can't stop okay? Its just something that calms down the nerves." She said with regret in her voice. "I try to stop Luz, I honestly try. But whenever I get stressed or angry, I just decide to."

"Im sorry."

I looked at her as she said that. My eyes still blurry from the tears.

"Then learn how to." I said with hot tears streaming down my face. "I don't want to lose you.."

"You won't Luz. I'm here forever."

I looked at her as she had a small smirk on her face. I honestly had to forgive her, she can't really control it. I gave her a hug and we walked home. Keeping in mind, that I, Luz Noceda, would help my own sister to stop smoking.

She looked like she regretted breaking her promise. I don't like seeing her like this but I have to get her to stop.

Bonus letter:

Im tired of life. Not thinking about dying purposefully, but just thinking if I went away just for a day? Of course everyone would be sad and stuff, but I just wanna see how it feels. Just to let go and let all the worries swarm pass me.

I wonder how that would feel.

Besides that, I feel like I've been rambling for too long. I guess its time for me to do my usual things.

Luz Noceda signing off for the day, hoping to see another. Stay safe!

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Amelia's POV

After Lucia left today to go home, I just sat there on my couch, doing nothing but watching random youtube videos and looking at random posts.

I was honestly bored. I checked the time, 12 PM. Watching videos and looking at random posts for 2 hours, BORING.

More videos later, I checked it again. 2 PM. I got hella bored so she decided to think about some random stuff.

I thought of why I wanted to make my life harder in the first place.

Why did I cheat on Lucia when she was perfect for me?

Sure, she can be a real bitch sometimes, but shes Lucia. She's as crazy as her sister. Thats what makes her amazing. But, I like to mess up things because I don't actually THINK.

Honestly, Wionna was one of my good friends. But we eventually shared our feelings (which us feeling the same way somehow), then leading to me dumping Lucia.

I actually felt something for Wionna. I thought us being together forever was true. If anyone had told her that she would eventually break up with Lucia, she would've folded you into a paper crane. Thats how much she loved the girl.

But, now that thats all gone, I can't even cope with herself without feeling regret.

I checked my phone for ANOTHER time. 4 PM. Honestly I was bored of all this time going by so quickly, so I decided to take a small nap.

With all this crap happening, I just wanted to sleep and let the worries go away by themselves. But thats how this world is I guess?

My life is honestly, HELL and I want to escape from it.

Amelia Blight, signing the fuck out. Don't die.

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A/N:

Over 1k words LETS GOOOO

But on a serious note, I had some good times with this. Even though it was hard to do and I spent a while on this, I still love it. Gotta love what ya make right?

Gotta figure out what to do next for future chapters.

Also, feel free to leave ideas for the next chapter I hopefully make and not forget.

- xwizardz (wizzy)