Have you every had something eating at you until you feel like you are empty. Like you are just a hollow egg. Fragile. Thin. Useless. Well millions of people do too. You may find 7 people in the whole world who assess this situation as you do. I'm going to come right out and say. I am self conscious. I have an eating disorder. It only appears when I am depressed. Well not depressed but when I have reached the lowest point. I puke and can't handle food. I see myself as fat when I know I have a body that someone would kill to have. I know I sound like I'm an attention whore. I know I sound like every typical bitch. But oh well... This is my entries. A lot of people don't understand what it's like to feel like this. Many people act as they do, they say things like "yeah I diet and now it makes me puke to eat lots of food" "yeah I puke my food to stay thin" but they difference is, they do it by force. They choose that style. The terrible thing about humans, they think empathy is the best way to go... When really it makes people mad. It sounds so rude that you have barely explained yourself and people act empathetic. Disgusting if you think about it. Humans act without thinking. Obviously everyone does but in certain circumstances, it is terrible. Eating disorders make me cut. It makes me feel so guilty. People truly believe I am fine, when I am anything but fine. So many things eat your way outside of your body. You may seem fine on the outside, but you are really dieing on the inside. Looks are decieving. That girl who never seems to be hungry, could have an eating disorder.
