𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐀𝐫𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐘𝐨𝐮

𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐒

I won't go into much detail, but yay! It's done and let me tell you this book was an emotional rollercoaster for me, especially when it is based on a true story.

This story made me cry (a lot) I spent most of my days with red puffy eyes. Because it was difficult to write. To incorporate feelings that can't really be explained.

If you didn't notice, I tried to make you all uncomfortable, and if I did. I succeeded. Originally Jungkook was going to be this sassy- bad boy type of student. But I got his character from a dream actually so I tried my best in remembering how the character was, I don't think I remember it much really.

But Jungkook as you can see is this intellectual, phenomenon, he's beautiful, but he is very insecure. About his image, himself. He's xenophobic and he is an overthinker.

Then he's also this curious young adult who still has so much to live for. Um- I tried to showcase this in the scenes about sex and many others. When he had looked at the pictures of the human bodies, and at how he addressed certain areas.

I wanted him to make you feel uncomfortable, to make him connect with you in some way. And I don't think I did that well, but I tried.

"The moral of this story is that sometimes, you can attempt to make all the difference in the world, and it still is like trying to stem the tide with a sieve. The moral of this story is that no matter how much we try, no matter how much we want it ... some stories just don't have a happy ending." - Jodi Picoult

A while ago I read Leaving Time and if I am honest with you, I cried like a little bitch. It made me cry because it's that topic that you have experienced, but you can't speak about it. It's when I realized that one day, we were going to die and I'm not afraid of dying hell no. I'm afraid of living and knowing that any day now someone will die whether it is my brother or my mother, we never know who's next. And I am being honest, I rather die at the age of 82 than live until I am 100, I don't think I'll ever learn how to overcome the grief of losing someone that I love.

As for the ending- it's tragic.

Fucking tragic.

I did it like that because I see so many books with the perfect happy ending. A great cliffhanger. A fascinating discovery, but I didn't want that. I just wanted to break you down if I'm honest and make you see that some lovers only have few time to fall in love. And what is so heartbreaking about it is the fact that we fall in love with that one person in a short period.

𝐒𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐦𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐚 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰.

Taehyung did in fact rape Jungkook in the tenth grade.

Yoongi is an alcoholic

Jimin didn't look both ways because he knew that without Jungkook he was going to hurt more. It was suicide.

Jungkook knew he was going to die the moment he was inside the car. It's the reason why he wanted to call a cab instead. I mentioned it before but he would always feel suffocated inside of it. Like he wasn't breathing so he knew that he was gonna die, that he was dying when he felt the impact of the car on his side.

Marcus was everything to Jungkook and that is why at times Jungkook considered death as an answer or why he explained that he was suffocating. It was his way of expressing that he wanted to kill himself because his feelings were bubbling inside of him.

Jungkook has this vocabulary, it wasn't complex and it was almost easy to read but he did have many advanced words. If you pay attention, you can see that when he is vulnerable that he doesn't use much of the fancy words he's always using and that is because his vulnerability is breaking him down and it's causing his intellectual side of him to freeze for a second while his emotional sideshows out.

I understand that it wasn't a nice ending, I agree. But I wanted to make everything realistic and maybe it came out as unrealistic instead. I wanted to (again) make you uncomfortable, make you have goosebumps though I assume that you didn't.

What was your favorite quote? If there is any.

Part of the story that you enjoyed reading?

Any questions?

𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖 𝐈 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐁𝐔𝐓 𝐈'𝐌 𝐎𝐔𝐓