imagines | d.t

ex-bestfriend [e.d]

Ethan was your best friend. Well, not really. Best friends weren't in love with each other. Your last relationship was a mess to say the least and left you with a broken heart and trust issues. A few months after, Ethan had told you he was in love with you and you panicked. You ran away from him and ghosted him until he showed up looking like a crying mess at your door, begging for you to just talk to him because he missed you like crazy. And you couldn't deny the fact that you missed him too. A lot more than you'd like to admit.

It was a rocky process at first but eventually you and Ethan were back to being best mates, ignoring the fact that both of you were completely in love with each other but that's okay. You were too scared of relationships now and expected only the worst thanks to your last relationship. Obviously you knew Ethan wasn't like your ex but you couldn't help but be scared.

Lately, you and Ethan haven't been hanging out as much. You used to spend everyday with each other and have sleepovers but now Ethan is apparently always 'busy'. You knew that all the excuses he used were bullshit but you were yet to know why he was acting so distant. So after a long two weeks of Ethan being MIA, you decided to surprise him at his house with chinese takeout and a night in. Who would say no to that?

Ethan's last excuse was that he was extremely sick so when he opened the door to his apartment looking healthier than ever, you didn't know what it meant. "Oh, um- Hey" He stutters, surprised to see you. "Some cold you have there" You scoffed, shoving the takeout in his chest and turning to leave feeling so dumb. Ethan stood there for a second, still not understanding why you came here if he ghosted you, before dropping the takeout and rushing behind you.

"Y/N, wait!" Ethan called as he grabbed your arm and turned you around to face him. You shoved your arm out of his grip, scowling at him. "Fuck off, Ethan". You never call him Ethan, always Eth, so once you said his real name he knew you were angry.

"I'm sorry I lied to you, okay?" Ethan rushes out as you looked like you were about to leave. "What the fuck do you mean 'I'm sorry I lied to you' Ethan, that's not how it works!" You yelled at him. "I don't know what you want me to say!" He huffs, defeated. "Why did you lie?" You calm down and ask him.

Ethan looks away from your eyes and scratches the back of his neck. "Fine, don't tell me". Just as you were about to leave, Ethan grabs onto your arm again. "Okay fine, I'll tell you! Just come in, at least- please" He pleads and you don't answer and walk into his apartment. You stand there as he closes the door and puts the takeout on the table.

You never just stand there, this is basically your second home. But this time you wait until Ethan gestures for you to sit next to him on the sofa, sitting on the other end of it. Ethan sits down and rests his hands on his knees, looking down at the ground like he was trying to find the words to give you an explanation.

Ethan huffs, looking up at you nervously and bites his inner cheek. You patiently wait for him to speak as he tries to stutter out sentences, but then goes quiet. "Y/N- I, um, I don't want to be friends anymore". That was the last thing you expected to hear as your heart dropped to your stomach. "What? Why- Why not? Did I do something?"

In a second your anger was replaced by disbelief as you pleaded for him to change his mind but Ethan shook his head. "You can't do this Ethan, you're my best friend!". "Exactly Y/N!" He burst out, getting up from the sofa, "I'm your 'best friend'! 'This is my friend Ethan!' I'm sick of it! All of it!". You look at him shocked, trying to push back the tears that were threatening to fall.

"I cant just stand there and act like you didn't shatter my heart into pieces when you rejected me last year! I love you, Goddammit! I want to be with you! And I know Tristan broke your heart but I'm not Tristan! I would never do that to you, I've always been there for you and I always will be! But I- I cant do this anymore Y/N, it's too painful for me" His voice cracks as he takes in a deep breath. All you do is gulp as he desperately waits for an answer.

"So that's it?" You muster up through your shaky voice, looking up at the glossy eyed boy. "Fucking hell Y/N, why don't you trust me? I love you, why won't you just give me a chance to prove that to you?" Ethan pleads with broken eyes, sitting back down next to you as you look down at your feet.

"I'm scared Ethan! I don't fucking know what to do anymore after what happened! And I know you love me and that you're different, and I'm sorry! But I'm scared, okay? I cant handle getting my heart broken again, no matter how much I love you!" You admit, letting the tears fall as you hold back a sob. Ethan's mouth falls open and voice quiets down, "You love me?". "Of course I love you Ethan, I'd be an idiot not to love you" You say quietly, wiping your tears.

"Then be with me Y/N, let me show you how you're supposed to be loved and treated. Give me a chance to prove you wrong, please- I'm begging you here." He takes your hand into his and you bite your lip to suppress any sound, sniffling. "Look at me, please" His voice cracks making your heart hurt as you look up at him, tears falling down his face mirroring yours.

"I- I don't know" You whisper as he looks into your eyes with so much hope. You wanted to give him a chance but so much fear was spread in your body. Ethan reaches one of his hands from yours to your cheek, wiping a tear that fell and moves closer to you. "I love you, okay? With everything in me, Y/N. You're it for me." Ethan whispers to you, silently begging you to give him a chance.

"I love you too, Ethan" You let out with a deep breath, voice cracking. His thumb caresses your cheek as he waits for your answer, his nose now red along with his cheeks. "Do you trust me?" He asks quietly and you pause to contemplate what you were about to do. You take his hand that was resting on top of yours and place it on your other cheek, "With everything in me" You reciprocate, looking up at the boy.

Ethan does a double take before leaning forward and pressing his lips against yours, taking you by surprise. You kiss him back with just as much passion, sighing in relief against his lips. He pours so much love into the kiss, years of holding back now gone. You can taste a mix of both of your salty tears but neither of you care.

You move to grip the back of Ethan's neck, pushing him closer to you. He gets up and slightly hovers over you, pushing you against the back of the couch as he lets out a breath against your lips. As soon as you pulled away, Ethan grabs your waist and pulls you on his lap making you squeal. He squeezes you against his chest as you wrap your arms around his neck, pulling him flush against your chest.

Ethan kisses your cheek and neck, before kissing behind your ear and whispering to you. "I love you, so much, can't believe you're mine now." and you pull him closer. "You have me now, I love you Eth" You mumble into his shoulder, kissing it lightly. Both of you stay like that for a while before falling asleep, and you can easily say you didn't regret trusting Ethan because he was the best thing that ever happened to you.