imagines | d.t

move [e.d]

"no, no." i say while rushing out of the house and to my car.

we were at y/f/n's house and when everyone goes to get drinks and leaves ethan and kiara, his ex, alone he makes out with her.

he cheated on me while i was in the same fucking house, not caring if i would see him.

"y/n please!" ethan pleads as he runs after me and towards my side of the car.

i don't listen to him and try to find my keys which were inside the pocket of my jeans.

"let me explain, y/n." he whines but i ignore him, feeling a burning sensation in my throat.

ethan keeps on pleading for me to listen to him until i've had enough and found my keys.

"no shut up!" i yell at him, causing him to be quiet instantly.

"why would you date me if you still had feelings for keira!" i ask and he stays quiet, making me scoff.

"y/n-" he begins but i cut him off.

"you're fucked up, ethan." i say while laughing at how dumb i was to believe him.

my hand reaches the car door behind me and begins to open it but ethan's hand pushes it closed.

"please y/n." he says with a shaky voice.

"no you don't get it, ethan." i say in a frustrated tone, turning to look at him.

"you don't get to just play with my feelings because you were bored without keira okay! i'm not some fucking object you can toy with!" i shout at him, throwing a hand up in frustration causing him to look down in shame.

his eyes widen and he quickly looks up, hands latching onto my arm. "w-what, let go!"

i kept trying to wiggle my arm out of his grip but he squeezed it tightly, not enough to hurt me, and pulled it closer to his face.

expression dropping completely, his upset eyes meeting my angered ones.

ethan's eyes fill with tears but he quickly blinks them away, "i-i thought you were happy with me."

his hands graze over the new scars on my arm, his bottom lip almost quivering.

"i thought you stopped-" ethan lowered his voice towards the end of the sentence, dropping my hand, but i knew what he was hinting at.

"i was never good enough, was i?" my shaky voice asks and he immediately shakes his head rapidly.

i continue, feeling myself about to breakdown."you never loved me, you always loved her, right?"

"i love you, y/n-" ethan tries protesting but i cut him off, "you never loved me! you're a liar and you're selfish!"

i take deep breaths, trying to calm myself down. ethan fiddles with his fingers clearly not knowing what to say.

"you can't use other people as rebounds, ethan, that's not how it fucking works." i try to yell but my voice cracks, his eyes softening as he takes a step closer to me.

immediately, i move backwards causing hurt to flood his face.

"i have feelings okay! i have feelings a-and you don't get to mess with them just because you're bored." tears escape my eyes and i harshly wipe them.

"baby-" ethan whispers as his hand reaches up to my cheek but i turn my head to the other direction. "don't, okay, just don't." i manage to say with a shaky voice, hiccuping in between.

ethan blinks and some tears fall freely on his face before mustering a quiet, "i love you y/n. i promise."

i grit my teeth, trying not to breakdown, my face stained with tears. "move." is all that manages to escape my mouth.

"y/n don't." ethan whispers as his voice cracks.

i sniffle and shut my eyes tightly, knowing what i'm doing is permanent.

"i said move." i say quietly while sniffing.

he moves, the tears  escaping his eyes making his face puffy, and i immediately get into my car, putting it in ignition then driving off.

once i was far enough, i park at a random house and breakdown, letting all my tears free.

sobs escape my lips as i hit the steering wheel repeatedly, not caring about how loud my cries were. 

my hands grip onto the steering wheel painfully tight and i hit my head against it, my shoulders shaking with every sob.

i thought he loved me.

i should've believed everyone when they told me i was just a rebound, but i believe him.

i was so fucking blinded by love that i didn't see what was right in front of me.

and now i'm paying the price.

tears fall onto my shirt and i lose the ability to breath, feeling my heart ache in a way that it's never ached before.